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its been a long time since i wrote in here some of it was just being lazy and that no one wanted to read what i had to say, but the main reason was because i didn't know what to say without saying the right thing or not, i was afraid i was going to hurt someone i care very deeply about. but i came over my fear when i realized that it doesn't matter what i say or anything i'm cared about not matter what and it took me a long time to realize that. i was scared i wasn't what someone made me out to be, that i couldn't really be what was said about me, i thought i wasn't good enough for this person to care about me. i was wrong we both needed each other as much as we both thought...we aren't together right now but we are getting close and he is coming out here to be closer to me and to see if he can be at home here and i'm excited about it. we've finally been able to talk again like we used to...i have my best friend back again but its still sorta different because we aren't together...when he comes out here we don't know what will happen and i kinda like that, i've always been surprised with him, good and bad, but i like to be surprised so i wanna wait and find out what it'll be like. i know i love this person but i don't know what will happen when he comes here next summer, if he still comes, and i wanna find out what will, who knows what will happen but i wanna find out!!!