thoughts running through the brain

[blondetweaker]

feelings of pain and hurt inside
i am running out of places to hide
where will i look next?
where will i fit best?
when will i be able to look inside and find the person i am and stop trying to hide.
people around me all know who they are
instead i keep picking up personalities that aren't even mine
will they like me for me?
will they consider me some kind of speciality?
when will i discover the truth?
uncover the truth?
know who i am
be myself again.
at first i was me and then i kept picking up so many different personalities.
just be myself is what i keep hearing but i can't be myself when i don't know what that is.
time is ticking and running out.
pushing people away is what i feel like i am all about.
pain and hurt deep inside
when i decide to stop trying to run and hide
i will finally discover the truth
finally know who i am and what i am all about.