Seriously Couldnt be Happier..
These last couple weeks.. have been... very eventful...
between different drama, different events I have had to overcome, and just everything... but my favorite.. is what these last couple weeks have lead to.. or actually this past month, cause its been two weeks now..that this favorite thing has been goin on... which.. is my bf. He is seriously.. the greatest boyfriend, well for me anyways. He is perfect for me.. In i love him. There is nothing I can complain about right now. Things have gotten soo different in our relationship, in its like the both of us were finally ready to take it a bit more serious. All i can say is... the best things in life.. are worth waiting for. These months that i have stuck with him..and hes stuck with me.. have been worth it for us to be how we are now. He knows me.. better than neone else. I dont even have to open my mouth half the time in he just knows what i want, or how im feeling. He knows how to put up with me..and puts up with me pretty well :D I cant wait to spend thanksgivin with him.. i cant wait to spend christmas with him.. He truely does make me happy. I wont lie.. I am struggling with somethings inside, and I am very glad that he has delt with some of it, and so well. Again it goes back to know he knows me so well. I dont want to dicuss the things im strugglin with on here.. until I hae atleast explained it all to him.
Lately I have been with him.. A LOT. But doing all sorts of random stuff. In i like it cause now that we are a bit different i get to talk to ppl more, n see ppl more. FInally started hanging out with Ben in Crystal, in thats fun I enjoy it. In it was nice to get to know her, and also see she can relate with me on certain things, especially one of the things im strugglin with, she knows what im talking about. Its just so hard havin a great guy :D But anyways.. Brian in I do a lot of things together now, in Im starting to enjoy it. I nevr thought I could be like that or want to be with him as much as i do or share as many things as i do, let alone be with someone almost everyday! But I do. I enjoy everything we do together, even if its as stupid as goin out shoe shoppin hehe. Its just nice to finally have someone..n share everything with them. In also... to feel... something like... love. <3
Other things... you know.. the more in more I grow up.. the more in more i could careless about certain ppl and friends. I have enough ppl that I know i can just get along with and hang out with, but it doesnt mean they have to be my friends. Than Ill find myself... mayb a couple.. or a few good friends. Ppl i know that will be there no matter what, ppl that i know i can tell enthing to and say the truth to, and ppl that can feel they can do the same with me, and not worry about loosing your friends. Im really gettin sick of immature things. Be who u are, not who u think you should be. In dont be a hypocrite. In the past.. couple months or so, i have had a couple "major" fights with two ppl who i thought were my best friends, the two ppl who I considered my best friends, in the only two ppl. But I was wrong.. on both of them. Kinda for the same reasons, and kinda not? Both for the fact that it showed they werent my bestfriends, ebcause bestfriends can overcome anything, and also my bestfriends should know me well enough and trust me well enough. And in one of the situations.. should be able to admit to someone if they were wrong instead of tellin my other friends that they are afraid to call me and say sorry... friends should be able to admit when they are wrong and say sorry if they know they were wrong. But you know what... like I said All i can do is be me, and if i know who I am..and how I am.. than thats all that matters to me, because eventually you will find friends that realize it. For now.. I wont deal with it.
Well the rest of this weekend should be pretttyyy good. Today i had a bad start with my car..and its stuck at brians.. I need a new tire.. well i need 4 new tires..but one to atleast drive it! ha. Later crystal in I are goin job hunting, I need something else really really bad, its horrible. I need something before christmas.. i love christmas and i want to be able buy lots of things for everyone!! SO hopefully her in I find something.. than tonight its Nates Party, Im verrryyy excited for that! yay.
o man.. well this is a long entry.
sooo ill cut it at that.
ps- I miss lots of the ppl I havent seen in a while!!
between different drama, different events I have had to overcome, and just everything... but my favorite.. is what these last couple weeks have lead to.. or actually this past month, cause its been two weeks now..that this favorite thing has been goin on... which.. is my bf. He is seriously.. the greatest boyfriend, well for me anyways. He is perfect for me.. In i love him. There is nothing I can complain about right now. Things have gotten soo different in our relationship, in its like the both of us were finally ready to take it a bit more serious. All i can say is... the best things in life.. are worth waiting for. These months that i have stuck with him..and hes stuck with me.. have been worth it for us to be how we are now. He knows me.. better than neone else. I dont even have to open my mouth half the time in he just knows what i want, or how im feeling. He knows how to put up with me..and puts up with me pretty well :D I cant wait to spend thanksgivin with him.. i cant wait to spend christmas with him.. He truely does make me happy. I wont lie.. I am struggling with somethings inside, and I am very glad that he has delt with some of it, and so well. Again it goes back to know he knows me so well. I dont want to dicuss the things im strugglin with on here.. until I hae atleast explained it all to him.
Lately I have been with him.. A LOT. But doing all sorts of random stuff. In i like it cause now that we are a bit different i get to talk to ppl more, n see ppl more. FInally started hanging out with Ben in Crystal, in thats fun I enjoy it. In it was nice to get to know her, and also see she can relate with me on certain things, especially one of the things im strugglin with, she knows what im talking about. Its just so hard havin a great guy :D But anyways.. Brian in I do a lot of things together now, in Im starting to enjoy it. I nevr thought I could be like that or want to be with him as much as i do or share as many things as i do, let alone be with someone almost everyday! But I do. I enjoy everything we do together, even if its as stupid as goin out shoe shoppin hehe. Its just nice to finally have someone..n share everything with them. In also... to feel... something like... love. <3
Other things... you know.. the more in more I grow up.. the more in more i could careless about certain ppl and friends. I have enough ppl that I know i can just get along with and hang out with, but it doesnt mean they have to be my friends. Than Ill find myself... mayb a couple.. or a few good friends. Ppl i know that will be there no matter what, ppl that i know i can tell enthing to and say the truth to, and ppl that can feel they can do the same with me, and not worry about loosing your friends. Im really gettin sick of immature things. Be who u are, not who u think you should be. In dont be a hypocrite. In the past.. couple months or so, i have had a couple "major" fights with two ppl who i thought were my best friends, the two ppl who I considered my best friends, in the only two ppl. But I was wrong.. on both of them. Kinda for the same reasons, and kinda not? Both for the fact that it showed they werent my bestfriends, ebcause bestfriends can overcome anything, and also my bestfriends should know me well enough and trust me well enough. And in one of the situations.. should be able to admit to someone if they were wrong instead of tellin my other friends that they are afraid to call me and say sorry... friends should be able to admit when they are wrong and say sorry if they know they were wrong. But you know what... like I said All i can do is be me, and if i know who I am..and how I am.. than thats all that matters to me, because eventually you will find friends that realize it. For now.. I wont deal with it.
Well the rest of this weekend should be pretttyyy good. Today i had a bad start with my car..and its stuck at brians.. I need a new tire.. well i need 4 new tires..but one to atleast drive it! ha. Later crystal in I are goin job hunting, I need something else really really bad, its horrible. I need something before christmas.. i love christmas and i want to be able buy lots of things for everyone!! SO hopefully her in I find something.. than tonight its Nates Party, Im verrryyy excited for that! yay.
o man.. well this is a long entry.
sooo ill cut it at that.
ps- I miss lots of the ppl I havent seen in a while!!