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life has been so horrible for the past month or so. today flint was yellin at me writing me nasty notes and doin anything possible to make me more angry then i already am. i dont get him. he says how i think hes a nobody but wtf i never ever said that ive never said that to anybody. then i told sum girl that he was prob gunna do sum girl in her car or w/e and he was like throw away all of our pix and lettters. come on man if only he took the time to listen to wat i had to say about everythin then things could be a lil different. but no he has to say everything he has to say n im juss completely ignored. if u love sum1 as much as he did then why the heck would he waste no time and go right for another girl. it makes no sence to me. i kno that im not gunna be goin with any guys for a while cuz i juss cant rush things like that. when i told him you never kno what ya got till its gone he flipped out on me i mean come on we are over n now atleast for me everything that we ever did together starts hittin me, it hurts so bad. my heart has not once stopped shattering and my heart is always racing and skipping beats. im probably more stressed out being out of the relationship then being in the relationship. if only i could change things and turn back time so everything could be perfect. but nope its too late now ive done n screwed my whole life up. thats sumthin to be proud of. NOT.