(no subject)
Is it weird that i'm getting used to always being in pain and getting used to going to the hospital, i had 3 cat scans within 6 or 7 months. last night when no one was looking (my mom didn't stay with me, she went home) i cried because i don't want to be strong anymore, i'm getting annoyed with the doctors not knowing whats wrong with me. The next day they said they were gonna have me stay one more day but then i said i wanted to go home so they did one more test thing and yay they finally figured out what i have...i'm not gonna say what it is...cause thats my personal business but there are pills and stuff that will hopefully work, and of course i have to follow up with more doctors but at least i don't have to add to my two surgery's that i'm gonna have to have. So i guess i'll just keep being strong and stay possitive cause it's the only way to go. i'd never thought i'd say this...but damn it's nice to be home.