happiness
She looks at you with the biggest smile, when she hears your name she jumps, when she thinks about you she is filled with joy. she knows things about you that people just don't understand. when she is sad and down, the only person she wants around, is you. she is me.
on a different note...i've had time to think for once this week, and my thinking/questions are driving me crazy. i ask the questions that the scientist are trying to answer. and i not only ask them, i try and answer them, which i find is not working.
my questions are...
what the fuck are we doing? i mean why are we spending so much time stressing out and hating life, we're just gonna die anyways. why do we fight soo hard for our happiness, and if something goes wrong, our whole world falls apart. we are so selfish. i'm just gonna say it...
what we are living for?
do we have that much hope and faith, are we that driven in having a life of happiness. what is the defintion of a life of happiness? are we just babysitting the world, making sure earth is ok? cause if so, we are doing a really bad job, we are destorying this world, with our selfishness, and what for? everyday, everynight, every second something bad is happening, but if it's not happening to you, it's ok right? if this is just a race to see who can be the happiest, then i'm in the slow group, but thats ok because one day i'm gonna die and nothing is gonna matter anymore. and i know you may not believe me for some reason or what not, but my life doesn't really mean anything at least to me. but i wish i was happy cause then people wouldn't be on the streets or dying or homeless or being hurt. for some reason everytime i thank god for what i have, i cry for what the pain others are going through. and i know i could make a difference, going on midnight runs and giving away my clothes and what not or say my money, stop buying stupid pointless things that make me "happy" and give it to the homeless, but reality hits me everytime, there are always going to be people in pain, and dying, and we wouldn't have been able to make them all happy. i honestly don't give a shit about myself anymore, and i know i'm young, but it's never too early or too late to think about these things.
i looked the defintion of life, and this is what i found...
definition of life:
true to life:
Conforming to reality.
the good life:
A wealthy, luxurious way of living.