bittersweet livin'
so i'm very emotionally unstable right now. i'm feeling so many crazy and drasitcally different things right now i swear i'm gonna go crazy soon. so i'm totally bummed about my schedule and lack of friends in my classes but totally pysched about my car and my license inching closer and closer. i miss my friends so god damn much and miss being comfortable around them when i see them. i miss not trying around them and just assuming they liked me. but i love being with ryan and the way he can make all my problems disappear for the time being. but damnnn all this shit accounts for crazy mood swings. it sucks. i can go from being absolutely ecstatic to incredibly depressed. it just sucks. why does my life have to be so god damn oxymornoic.