not a good time
last night my world came crashing down. me and cavin are "taking a break", while he thinks about some things. as much as i want things to come back together i don't see how it would happen. i live in va, with about 7 years of schooling left, while hes in ohio with his own schooling. he says he still loves me though, i feel so helpless for i know that he is more precious to me than i to him (not trying to diss him), which makes it harder on me cuz i know deep down no matter what i would take him back. i know your all saying "ohh... you'll meet someone else", but i know nobody will ever mean more then him. even if we still talked i don't think i'd be able to go over to his house (when i come up to visit) and still act like everything is okay. i feel like a whole year was wasted, like none of it meant anything at all. i know it may not seem but i've sacrificed so much for him. even though things may not work out now i know i want to be with him in the future, i don't want anybody else. it was so hard to keep the tears back all day. i finally let out when i left nick's apartment( which him and my sister recently just broke up to... go figure), i told my mom everything and she thinks it will be ok and i'll go on and meet somebody else...
lost...
lost...