if u wanna leave, take good care, hope you make a lotta good friends out there

Jul 19, 2003 00:07

*ooh baby, baby it's a wild world*

Well, I just got home from the movies about an hour ago. I watched How To Deal and it was great. A very nice movie and it was really funny. And Mandy is officially an amazing actress. Whenever I see singers acting in movies, I never picture them as the character and always as the singer that they are in real life. But Mandy is so good!! The whole way thru I never thought of her as Mandy Moore but as "Halley"... and her hair looked so good! I loved it in the beginning when it was all messy and dif. lengths. I recommend u guys see it :D Anyways, on to more important matters. After the movie Anna insisted we go to Colli to see who was there. I remember in grade 9 that was like my second home. All of me and the girls would get all dressed up and prettified and go there all the time and get picked up by guys. Going there today made me see how much I've changed and how much my friends have changed for the worse :S I wore a white tank top and my fav comfy parasuco jeans. Anna wore a top that looked like a bra, and I could tell she was wearing a water bra that had like 3 packages in each boob. It was pretty lame and sad to see. Anna is a pretty girl but today she wasn't looking her best. It was weird cuz I was always the uglier one with my braces and pimples. Well my braces are gone, so are my pimples. Anna over-did it with the makeup trying to cover up her imperfections. She was walking around half naked and it was pretty chillie today. We both got picked up the difference is she tries and I don't. But guys still drool all over her. They don't see the artificiality of it all. Neither does she. She's become so volatile (not in the good way). How did I let my friend get sucked into this fakeness. This image that the media pressures the girls to attain. I almost felt disgusted by the whole situation. I remember when I would do that. I mean I still do the cleavage thing of course. But I use my own boobs and I also wear comfy clothes. Anna looked so uncomfortable like she was walking with a tree up her ass. I dont mean to pick on her. I know I'm blabbering and being repetitive but I can't help it. Why do people have to be so fake? Why can;t they just be themselves? She kept saying I was weird. We really don't know each other any more. And she kept calling me a rock on cuz my hair is black underneath. I really hate that. I don't like to be labelled. I'm not a rock on and I'm not a gina, I'm just myself. I'm really disappointed by her second-hand opinions. There weren't even any cute guys at the movies. Not that I was really looking. I was thinking about Mike the whole time. I just have this feeling about him. He's the one. I know its soon but it's not our first time. I can't wait to have him fully back in my life. Especially after today. Seeing all these posers and lil 15 year olds trying to be strippers, I need him. He's so grounded and mature. I can relate to him unlike my friends who still have a lot of growing up to do. He;s one of the few people I know who realizes things like I do. Plus after seeing that movie, I need to kiss him soo badly. I can't wait til tomorrow. Ooooh it's gonna be great :D
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