Can't sleep... Ramble haters beware
OK.. I have a funny feeling that I'm gonna ramble so ramble haters beware...
I just read A-Rae's LJ.. I feel so bad because I feel like I am the one that is making her home sick.. she's been up by me.. but I was down by her for a while.. (I think that the next time I go down there I am going to sleep on the floor so she can have her bed)
I feel all bad now.. and I don't wanna feel bad because tomorrow is my birthday.. but than again there is really no one other than my mom and step dad and brother who care.. I hate that. I got a call from my dad when I was at Amanda's. It was less then a week to my b-day mind you. He wanted to know what I was doing the night of my b-day. I told him that I didn't know but that I would get back to him. So I call my mom and she says that we are bring A-Rae home.. so I call my dad back again and tell him. Can you believe that HE got pissed at ME? How rude! Dude it's not my falut that I already have plans.. maybe if you called me like I don't know more than a week before my b-day? What do you think that I am sitting on my butt waiting for you to call me? NO! Anyway it ended up that I am going over there on Tuesday night instead of tomorrow. Fun, fun, fun! NOT!
Let's see what else? I don't know. I have this really weird lonely feeling. I think that I need someone else to talk to.. I've never had a REAL boyfriend.. I have always had a lot of boys that were friends and I came really close to going out on a date with Jimmy (all of you who don't know who Jimmmy is, don't worry about it) But I think that I need some kind of boyfriend. I flirt a lot... like today at the fair I liked this guy that was at the ride but nothing really came of it.. I am just feeling really lonely... :sigh:
I think that is why I have been so eager to go to A-Rae's... she has the best people down by her.. not to mention the boardwalk.. that is why I am hoping that I might be able to go down by her before school starts again... maybe? I don't know :sigh again: grr... I shouldn't be doing this.. I should be happy that tomorrow is my b-day right? And I should be happy that it is the summer right? Oh dear...
Well I am not sure what to do know.. I hope that A-Rae feels better tomorrow.. I know that her knee is hurting her.. than we ware taking her home tomorrow night.. I know that that is what she is really looking forward to... And then I am up here... all by my lonesome... I know that I have friends and all but there is NOTHING to do right now until school starts.. I mean I don't see them because they are kinda far (well not really) but they are all doing something.. I feel like the boring one! Oh well. :shrug: Maybe I'll be able to kill the last week or so in August with Amanda and than its back to school... but I'm only gonna go if she wants me.. im not gonna insist but I know that it would be fun.. seeing as how I'm stuck at the house now that my mom is working... it would give me something to do.. but until than I think that I am doing to hide for a while... if anyone wants me.. well.. I think that I'm going to cut that phrase short...
I just read A-Rae's LJ.. I feel so bad because I feel like I am the one that is making her home sick.. she's been up by me.. but I was down by her for a while.. (I think that the next time I go down there I am going to sleep on the floor so she can have her bed)
I feel all bad now.. and I don't wanna feel bad because tomorrow is my birthday.. but than again there is really no one other than my mom and step dad and brother who care.. I hate that. I got a call from my dad when I was at Amanda's. It was less then a week to my b-day mind you. He wanted to know what I was doing the night of my b-day. I told him that I didn't know but that I would get back to him. So I call my mom and she says that we are bring A-Rae home.. so I call my dad back again and tell him. Can you believe that HE got pissed at ME? How rude! Dude it's not my falut that I already have plans.. maybe if you called me like I don't know more than a week before my b-day? What do you think that I am sitting on my butt waiting for you to call me? NO! Anyway it ended up that I am going over there on Tuesday night instead of tomorrow. Fun, fun, fun! NOT!
Let's see what else? I don't know. I have this really weird lonely feeling. I think that I need someone else to talk to.. I've never had a REAL boyfriend.. I have always had a lot of boys that were friends and I came really close to going out on a date with Jimmy (all of you who don't know who Jimmmy is, don't worry about it) But I think that I need some kind of boyfriend. I flirt a lot... like today at the fair I liked this guy that was at the ride but nothing really came of it.. I am just feeling really lonely... :sigh:
I think that is why I have been so eager to go to A-Rae's... she has the best people down by her.. not to mention the boardwalk.. that is why I am hoping that I might be able to go down by her before school starts again... maybe? I don't know :sigh again: grr... I shouldn't be doing this.. I should be happy that tomorrow is my b-day right? And I should be happy that it is the summer right? Oh dear...
Well I am not sure what to do know.. I hope that A-Rae feels better tomorrow.. I know that her knee is hurting her.. than we ware taking her home tomorrow night.. I know that that is what she is really looking forward to... And then I am up here... all by my lonesome... I know that I have friends and all but there is NOTHING to do right now until school starts.. I mean I don't see them because they are kinda far (well not really) but they are all doing something.. I feel like the boring one! Oh well. :shrug: Maybe I'll be able to kill the last week or so in August with Amanda and than its back to school... but I'm only gonna go if she wants me.. im not gonna insist but I know that it would be fun.. seeing as how I'm stuck at the house now that my mom is working... it would give me something to do.. but until than I think that I am doing to hide for a while... if anyone wants me.. well.. I think that I'm going to cut that phrase short...