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omg havent updated in for freakin' ever---i have sooooooo much on my mind---john omg i love him with EVERYTHING i really do but rite now---even tho the fiting hasnt been as bad-- i feel like its so much worse, i almost wish the fitin were still there because then at least i would know he cared....it sux we're just falling apart----i hate it--i dont really talk about john much anymore to my friends-- i think they get sick of it-- plus wats there to tell--- every once in a while i will---like this mornin he called just to say i love u and have a nice day--- i told them but like he doesnt trust me cuz im stupid and i did sumthin--- i miss how it used to be.................................... but im not gonna think about it nemore cuz it hurts.
MOM---YOU DIDNT COME TO MY SPEECH COMPETITION AND I KNEW U WOULDNT--- I KNEW IT WOULDNT HAPPEN BUT SUMHOW EVEN THOUGH I KNEW IT WOULDNT, IT HURTS. I WAS READY FOR IT I REALLY WAS, BUT U NVR CAME!!!!! I LOVE U----- THATS ALL IM GONNA SAY ABOUT THIS...IM NOT GONNA THINK ABOUT THIS EITHER!
poor caleb-- his life is like falling apart rite now, i think my life sucks and then i look at his and i feel ashamed that i get sad about the things i get sad about. idk wat to do to make him feel better it sucks i wish i could have some use in someones life..... ugggggggggg idk wat to do about anything
I AM SUPER CONFUSED RITE NOW--- I WANT HIGH SCHOOL TO BE OVER SO THAT ALL THE CONFUSION AND SADNESS WILL GO AWAY!! I WISH I COULD SKIP RITE TO THE PART WHERE MY LIFE IS WHERE I WANT IT TO BE AND MY FAMILY IS STARTED AND EVERYTHING JUST GOES WITH THE FLOW BUT NOPE ITS NVR GONNA HAPPEN!
ive had some thoughts------------- im scared of losing everything i love because so much of what i love isnt apart og my life anymore--------so i did some thinking and some of the thoughts werent "safe" but they seemed like they would fix it!!! well idt u have to worry not yet---its calebs who needs the attention---im good for now! g2g love ya vy chantel caleb and lindsey
u too michaela
MOM---YOU DIDNT COME TO MY SPEECH COMPETITION AND I KNEW U WOULDNT--- I KNEW IT WOULDNT HAPPEN BUT SUMHOW EVEN THOUGH I KNEW IT WOULDNT, IT HURTS. I WAS READY FOR IT I REALLY WAS, BUT U NVR CAME!!!!! I LOVE U----- THATS ALL IM GONNA SAY ABOUT THIS...IM NOT GONNA THINK ABOUT THIS EITHER!
poor caleb-- his life is like falling apart rite now, i think my life sucks and then i look at his and i feel ashamed that i get sad about the things i get sad about. idk wat to do to make him feel better it sucks i wish i could have some use in someones life..... ugggggggggg idk wat to do about anything
I AM SUPER CONFUSED RITE NOW--- I WANT HIGH SCHOOL TO BE OVER SO THAT ALL THE CONFUSION AND SADNESS WILL GO AWAY!! I WISH I COULD SKIP RITE TO THE PART WHERE MY LIFE IS WHERE I WANT IT TO BE AND MY FAMILY IS STARTED AND EVERYTHING JUST GOES WITH THE FLOW BUT NOPE ITS NVR GONNA HAPPEN!
ive had some thoughts------------- im scared of losing everything i love because so much of what i love isnt apart og my life anymore--------so i did some thinking and some of the thoughts werent "safe" but they seemed like they would fix it!!! well idt u have to worry not yet---its calebs who needs the attention---im good for now! g2g love ya vy chantel caleb and lindsey
u too michaela