caresses and silk flowers like nothing i have ever known.
in all the time we made music together i have never heard my own little scratchy voice without the rest of the band. i realize i am not a little girl anymore. i can go out into the world and sing by myself.
i wanderd around the subways aimlessly tonight. it was crowded with the commotion of downtown businessmen. my head felt like it was spun and twirled like a ballerina in a music box. they were all mannequins in a motion that was slow. i felt like i couldn’t breathe everytime a mannequin fell against me, hitting me with his jointed plastic arm. i look at their faces and it’s you. they are all you. i wonder which one i should hold onto.
i swam with the sea creatures inside my head and sat there and paced and lost myself. i drifted with glossy eyes and tried to think of stories i'm going to tell you about why i’m there. two hours and eleven buses later i realize you probably aren’t going to show and leave relived because i wouldn’t know what to say to you anyway.
i wanderd around the subways aimlessly tonight. it was crowded with the commotion of downtown businessmen. my head felt like it was spun and twirled like a ballerina in a music box. they were all mannequins in a motion that was slow. i felt like i couldn’t breathe everytime a mannequin fell against me, hitting me with his jointed plastic arm. i look at their faces and it’s you. they are all you. i wonder which one i should hold onto.
i swam with the sea creatures inside my head and sat there and paced and lost myself. i drifted with glossy eyes and tried to think of stories i'm going to tell you about why i’m there. two hours and eleven buses later i realize you probably aren’t going to show and leave relived because i wouldn’t know what to say to you anyway.