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well hmmm these past 2 days were crazy! First the other night i was on the phone with david
for like 3 hours.. talking about who knows what... hes really cool to
talk to like hes the only guy i can actually have a convo with... cuz i
mean chris attempts to but
the only time we actually talk about stuff is when were talking about
us and whats gonna happen in the future and crap but the past couple
days ive been trying to avoid him with the whole future talk... he
thinks he loves me but i dont think he does because i mean unless it
was love at first sight but i doubt that shit... but seriously i feel
really bad when he tells me he loves me and i dont feel the same way so
i dont say it back... he told me today that he would rather have me
back in his life for another week or two and if i broke up with him
again then be just friends for a while and then hook up or something...
and it made me sad because i feel like im the bitch cause i dont like
him in that way i dont think... but shit its not like i even know who i
like right now... so yah i dont know what to do about the whole travis
thing but the other night i was talking to david about who i should pick and he told me since travis never calls me and jeff doesnt
either that i should go out with soemone i do talk with alot or that i
can see alot..well before we were talking about that alex called him on the other line and was just like whats up and hes like nothing im just on the phone with michaela and shes like ohhh well tell her i said hi... and then when she got off the phone david
was saying how we should play a joke on her and tell her that we were
dating.. i was like uhhh... ok go ahead call her and have me on 3
way... then hes like no cause she'd be really pissed and not want to be
your friend and im like well i dont think she would care because from
what she tells me she doesnt like you anymore and shes talking to johnny so
then hes like nah i was like fine ill do it if you give me 5 bucks hes
like no forget about it and im like ok whatever.. then like later on george calls david and
is like hey come pick me up from work and then hes like want to come
wiht me to pick him up but of course it was late and i was like
uhh nah..cause im laying down all comfortable and stuff..then later he
calls me back and is like where do you live im by jessicas house were
coming over im like umm idk my address... cause the reason why he was
coming over was to beat chris' ass and i was like no its ok really... then we started talkign about travis and jeff AGAIN! and he asks george which i should pick and hes like why dont you guys go out i was SOOO speechless... so now evryone thinks david likes me but i told alex
i dont think so because im not really that attractive i mean i think
she looks way better then me and he still is hung over on her at least
i think so! so then tonight i called david and he came over to alexis'
house cause we were bored and babysitting and the kids were asleep i
couldnt believe he actually came all the way out her though... but i
dont know what i should do now???...i need help... im so confused!
tomorrow im babysitting again but instead im gonna be at the DonCesar
because soemone at my moms work asked if she knew of anyone who was
available and she was like uh yeah my daughter..and then she called to
ask me and i found out its from 6:30 to 11:30 and im making 20 bucks an
hour... shit thats like 100 bucks! for one kid thats some good money
right there... so yah its finally a new year and my resolutions are...
<3 Kay Kay
- f igure out who to choose
- actually get over chris
- starvation diet
- have more FUN
- go to more parties
- fall in love
<3 Kay Kay