im going on a blank for creative lyric titles lately...sorry guys
im really happy with myself and my body for once in a long long while. i was pretty much grossed out with myself when i got back. none of my clothes fit, i have never weighed that much, and i just hated looking at my body in the mirror. i've always been chubby but never like this. every summer i vow to go on a diet and get better and i do for a week or 2, go to the gym every now and then, lose a couple of pounds but then i just go back to normal. i'm really proud of myself though. ever since i've been back i have been soo soo good. everyday i run for at least 30 minutes on the treadmill. it was hard at first cause i was so fucking out of shape, but now i can run for a while without getting tired. yesterday was by far the best. i ran for an hour non-stop, burned 600-something calories and ran 4.5 miles. i have a little pattern for lifting weights and i do 500 crunches, all different types before i go to bed. i have been eating so much better too. i eat a lot of veggies and fruit, eggs, and lots of chicken. i could never live without carbs so i dont even dare to cut that out. i think i would go insane, but i only eat 12 grain bread and treat myself to pasta and ice cream like once every 2 weeks. so far i have lost 8 pounds, which isn't that much but i'm more proud of the way i look and feel. i'm seeing a big difference in my tummy and my double chin has pretty much vanished, thank god. i don't really care how much i weigh technically as long as a look and feel good. i'm loving myself and my dedication right now, and with the treadmill right in the basement i think i can stick to it for the whole summer---no, i will stick to it for the whole summer. ok enough of that.