Mixed emotions, I'm truly human.

Mar 22, 2005 00:43

You can have something for years. You can believe one thing for so long, and put so much confidence into something you thought would be forever, and eternal. Then.. in a couple short days, you can fall back into what once was. To once again feel like you're sinking into something you thought was right, and perhaps initially really is best, and to emotionally let it take over only to question the effect it could have on others, and deny the fact it was ever mentioned mentally in the first place.

I question the amount of seriousness in my one situation, and compare it to another only to realize.. there is more in the other. I am human, and can be a very complicated individual when I want to be, or even unintentionally. In this case, it's the latter. I haven't had this much complication thrown into my lap before, and it's my own doing. I'm addicted to the thought of hoping it could last, in my heart. But, my head and body is telling me it's all in vain. It's not worth it, and it can never come true in the end.

I read my horiscope today, and it very well told me what was going on in my life, or, what I feel is going on in my life. Usually I don't listen to such things.. but today it really hit things dead-on. Here.

::If you still haven't tapped into your full potential, or found what you think is your true path in life, take heart, dear Virgo. Some people have things figured out early in life. Others think they do, only to discover it wasn't their calling after all. You may be a late bloomer in this regard, and this has its advantages. The older you are, the better you know yourself. The experience you've gained has helped tailor your abilities. Trust that you'll know what is right for you when it comes.::

Truly, I do hope I know what to do when the time comes. The time isn't now, though, and I don't plan on rushing into anything. I'm young, and I still have so much more to live for. I have a lot of things I haven't done yet, and things I've almost deprived myself of. It's time I step outside, breathe inward, and finally take the desired moments I desperately need to find myself. I want to travel outside my boundaries, I want to experience, and I want to know what it truly means to feel again.

I've had a taste, and I'm yearning for so much more.

Tied up, she was Starved.
Locked up, she was Deprived.
Taught one thing, she was Ignorant to all else.
Once shown the Outside, she would willingly break all bonds to simply Learn.

Au Revoir.


You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof).

Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.

agnosticism
79%
Satanism
71%
atheism
58%
Judaism
58%
Buddhism
54%
Islam
54%
Paganism
50%
Hinduism
33%
Christianity
25%
Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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Funny how the last thing I rank in is what I call my religeon. Maybe I'm just kidding myself, and hoping I could stay in something like that. ::Sigh.:: Looks like this entry could mean more than just one aspect of my life.
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