StReSsEd As A mOtHeR
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i feel like screaming. nicole is being a freakin b and im stressed out so much with this whole duncan thing bc weve been going out for almost 8 months now and i cant seem to be happy anymore an di lose sleep over it and i cry so much. theres a quote thats like "no man is worth your tears and if he loves you hell never make you cry" and i dunno if thats true or not bc im crying right now and i hate it. i dont know why i didnt kill myself when i had the chance. i owuld have never met nicole and i would have never gone out iwth duncan...dont get me wrong bc i love him to death its just i never knew i could hurt this bad and iits killing me. i miss all my friends in rock island bc everyone out here is cold and mean and i miss the warmth and niceness from my old friends. me and erin have grown so far apart and i kill myself for that. she was my bestest friend and i guess i got annoying to her and i just hate my life! i think the main thing is duncan tho bc i mean hes like trapped. and i know hes not happy. i make him misserable and it kills me. he always is like worried about me and i know that hes not suppose to. i mean if im about to kill myself or if i feel like dying or if im crying it brings him down. i really dont know why hes stayed with me. im cluless. gawd see how sucky my life is? im doubting our relationship. gawd gonna go hang myself and like nicole says "nobody will care"