I'm just so sick....
I'm just so sick of everything going on. I can't understand why people want to ause so much grief.
"Why?" That question runs through my head, blood in my veins. I've put up with this stuff for 11 years now. Everyone sees the problem. The W3 thinks "it's" in no wrong. I don't understand what to do.....IF i should do something. It seems like "another day" to me....just in the normal rutine of my life. Why should I worry about doing something? I'm 15 years old worrying about something that's going on with my parents......She HATES him, he's sick of her.....why......why, why, why....
It's like they act like children. It was a break up over 11 years ago. Just a divorce.....but they act like two TEENAGERS who broke up 3 weeks ago. They hate one another so bad. She keeps "black mailing" him. He doesn't care he just doesn't want the kids to get into it. I have had bad break ups but....not like this. Why does she hate him so much. Why doesn't he stop her.
I just want to cry. But it seems like I don't know how.......I want to scream, but nothing comes out. I'm so dizzy from being in circles.... Ya know those dreams you have ( we all do )...those dreams when you want to scream but you can't, when you want to run but it's in slow motion, want to cry...no tears......you want to just wake up........ thats my world......
I feel like my life is a dream.....nothing seems real. It's like i laugh on the inside because that's all I can do. People see me sitting there saying to themselves, " Wow, she's a hard thinker....Wonder what's running through her mind..." Yea i think....ALOT! ( just like my father) I'm always thinking how to wake up. I want someone to wake me up...shake me...pinch me...WAKE ME UP!! I "wake up " in the morning wondering where i am......it's a surprise to me where I end up. I've done this ever since I was little.
I know I might sound crazy but have you ever wondered if this is heaven, or hell?? I think it's Limbo. I really do. It's like a 2nd chance God gives us. We don't know what our past life was like, I guess that's why some people try to be "perfect". Maybe I am just crazy.....
-britt/broken
"Why?" That question runs through my head, blood in my veins. I've put up with this stuff for 11 years now. Everyone sees the problem. The W3 thinks "it's" in no wrong. I don't understand what to do.....IF i should do something. It seems like "another day" to me....just in the normal rutine of my life. Why should I worry about doing something? I'm 15 years old worrying about something that's going on with my parents......She HATES him, he's sick of her.....why......why, why, why....
It's like they act like children. It was a break up over 11 years ago. Just a divorce.....but they act like two TEENAGERS who broke up 3 weeks ago. They hate one another so bad. She keeps "black mailing" him. He doesn't care he just doesn't want the kids to get into it. I have had bad break ups but....not like this. Why does she hate him so much. Why doesn't he stop her.
I just want to cry. But it seems like I don't know how.......I want to scream, but nothing comes out. I'm so dizzy from being in circles.... Ya know those dreams you have ( we all do )...those dreams when you want to scream but you can't, when you want to run but it's in slow motion, want to cry...no tears......you want to just wake up........ thats my world......
I feel like my life is a dream.....nothing seems real. It's like i laugh on the inside because that's all I can do. People see me sitting there saying to themselves, " Wow, she's a hard thinker....Wonder what's running through her mind..." Yea i think....ALOT! ( just like my father) I'm always thinking how to wake up. I want someone to wake me up...shake me...pinch me...WAKE ME UP!! I "wake up " in the morning wondering where i am......it's a surprise to me where I end up. I've done this ever since I was little.
I know I might sound crazy but have you ever wondered if this is heaven, or hell?? I think it's Limbo. I really do. It's like a 2nd chance God gives us. We don't know what our past life was like, I guess that's why some people try to be "perfect". Maybe I am just crazy.....
-britt/broken