I didn't know I could do it...
This past friday I did something I didn't know I could do. I told my mother off.... And... I feel really good about it.
I told mom everything, about me and Damon, about what I'm going throuhg. I told her how life was getting to be too much, and how I was so angry with her for calling herself a Christian when she doesn't; love everyone, respect, forgive or honor other people. I told her my generation was different from theres, and becuase of who I am today I thank that to my friends, Damon, and those who are around me. I'm a strong person because of those people and what I have lived throught. I told her how lucky she was to even have a child as good as I am. Who wants to obtain an education, who wants to become some one, who desired a great future. I told her that I've sacrificed a lot to make sure everyones happy, my friends and loved ones, my family, my jobs, random people. And I kept forgetting myself. I kept doing what everyone wanted of me. I never took the time to look out for what I needed or wanted. So thats what I've been doing. I made my mother cry and re-think her religion. I told her it'll take time for you to be half the Christian I am....
I feel good, but my body has taken its wear. I just started eating real food. And got a lil more sleep. Yesterday was the first time I laughed in a long time if felt like. But because I treated my body so badly now I have a fever and a horrible cold.
I started my classes today: Drawing, and English 1102. I hate Mrs. Hutto. Shes the whose Art teacher....Why I take her you ask? Becuase she is the only damn art teacher @ MSC. My English class I think is going to be awesome! I'm really excited about it...
I miss him... I miss him so much... I honestly really think Damon is my one... but how can I know this? I think I need more time for myself to keep searching for what I need... I love you Damon... I think of you everyday and smile. I keep fighting everyday, to find my true self... and wonder... if he'd even take me back..