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If I could take back anything in my life that involved you, I would take back everything. I've never felt so much embarassment for my every action involving you. I'd hate to know what you think of me, but at the same time I'd die just to know exactly what you do. I don't think I can stand up straight and look you in the eye, just knowing how ive acted in the past and what a huge mistake I probably made. It wouldnt matter so much if the situation wasnt the way it is, because otherwise we'd have a chance. And now I know we never will. And as the situation goes I will have to see you, and will have to some how muster up the courage and the ability to be strong around you, to show you that im not an unexperienced little child, a simple amusement.