i can't believe this
i swear everytime that i hear the phone ring my heart races. i keep thinking that any minute out of the blue he will call. and everynight i drudge up the stairs in utter dissapointment because he never calls. this of course isnt doing wonders for my overall mood. i think that i am being a bitch to people, more than i am already, i am sorry! i am just so frustrated i cant even think straight. i am so utterly exhausted but i still dont go to sleep. instead i am here at the computer lab checking my email just in case he emailed me back, he didnt. i am so retarded sometimes. i anm dreading tomorrow. 5:50 am is going to come quite early! ok i should go.
g'night
g'night