why must i know everything
why must i feel these things that i feel... i always know what's going on with the ones that i care about... why have i been given this curse... i feel things that aren't my feelings... i know things that my mind doesn't think... i hear the words that aren't spoken to me... why... why am i the one to have this... at times it's good because i can use it to help people, but for the most part it's only been used to warn me of what's to come... i've been calling jessie all day today... from the moment that i got out of bed 12am till the time i left for work... i must of called her at lease 6 times... i had a feeling in my stoamch that something wasn't right and that i needed to see her... i can't always place it but i just have a feeling... i called her when i went on lunch and she was at recos' house with his parents... eating and then going to a movie... i don't know why he thinks it's ok to do that... he's standing on the end of a very long drop and i'm about the be the one who will push him over... and why does she think it's ok to go over there after all that has happend... why is it that she thinks that i'm not going to care.. of course i can't stop her but it doesn't mean that i give my approvel... that's almost as bad as me saying i'm going to go over dianas house and eat dinner with her and then see a movie... how would you feel then... so with that said why would you do that...
what ever.. i know i might be over doing it but can you really blame me... if it wasn't for the fact that i'm not a voilent person i wouldn't stuck his ass down along time ago... i've never started a fight but with this shit head i'd be more then happy to... it really burns my balls that she's over there. she saw how many missed calls she had and she didn't even call me... i don't know how many times i told her to call me even though i'm at work... i don't care if i can't get to the phone... i'd take a break and call her back.. i like hearing her voice... i like knowing that she's ok... she use to call me all the times... now it just seems that i'm chassing after her... like i'm putting all the effort into this...
i'm still alittle hot over what she did to me with this guy and i'm sure i have the rights... but i forgave... and all i ask is that she just put some effort into this and make some sacrfices tords this relastionship...
i gota get back to work...
everyone around me is freezing but i feel like i'm on fire righ now...
later
what ever.. i know i might be over doing it but can you really blame me... if it wasn't for the fact that i'm not a voilent person i wouldn't stuck his ass down along time ago... i've never started a fight but with this shit head i'd be more then happy to... it really burns my balls that she's over there. she saw how many missed calls she had and she didn't even call me... i don't know how many times i told her to call me even though i'm at work... i don't care if i can't get to the phone... i'd take a break and call her back.. i like hearing her voice... i like knowing that she's ok... she use to call me all the times... now it just seems that i'm chassing after her... like i'm putting all the effort into this...
i'm still alittle hot over what she did to me with this guy and i'm sure i have the rights... but i forgave... and all i ask is that she just put some effort into this and make some sacrfices tords this relastionship...
i gota get back to work...
everyone around me is freezing but i feel like i'm on fire righ now...
later