Frustration
I am three weeks away from graduating high school, but I already feel like I'm losing my best friend. She doesn't want to go to project grad and I have a feeling that she's not telling me the truth about why. Or maybe that she is, but she says it like it's a joke so that I discredit it. I just know that something is up. And the fact that she won't tell me what it is worries me. But I can't discuss it with her rationally because every time one of us says something about it I get incredibly pissed off for no real reason.
I've decided not to go to prom. $35 is better spent on a tank of gas instead of a night that I expect will be miserable and a reminder of the fact that I don't belong anywhere. So...fuck it. And she can deal with my not going like I'll deal with her not being there for the last time I see some of the people I've grown to love over the past 4 years, when I could really use someone who might not freak out as much about my crying.
I guess I'm starting to like most of the people at work more (except for Trevor who continues to be a complete d-bag), but I still don't really like the actual work. After hosting on Friday with Tasha I am deeply relieved that I'm now a primary cashier, as much as I honestly dislike doing that. I'd rather be a busser. That is one easy job. Very low-stress. Plus you get tipped out. Which I kinda need to supplement my $15/week paychecks.
So I have the feeling that I'm about to get my period because I just had a conversation with my grandma over the phone that almost made me break down crying. And I've been very annoyed recently. Incessantly. And that'll be fun :-/ I hope it's not a repeat of last month.
I wish Tucker wasn't still reading my Twilight, because I'd kind of like to re-re-read it. Or anything really. I should have gotten another book on Friday; who was I kidding thinking that one would last me all weekend? I could...have gone to the library yesterday and checked out one of the other two in that series, but I didn't. I also want to read The Host, but I have yet to. I think I might wait until it's at the library in case it's not as awesome as Twilight. Or I might get it later this month when I go to Borders to read the first chapter of Breaking Dawn (which, by the way, is going to kill me. Hardcore. Like, more than seeing the Twilight teaser trailer (which killed me approximately 8 times) because I know what's going to happen in that movie. The book is a complete unknown.)
Aww, the hot guy who was visiting next door left. Shame. Good news...totally got distracted and now I have no idea what I was about to say. But oh well. I must now go. Adieu.
I've decided not to go to prom. $35 is better spent on a tank of gas instead of a night that I expect will be miserable and a reminder of the fact that I don't belong anywhere. So...fuck it. And she can deal with my not going like I'll deal with her not being there for the last time I see some of the people I've grown to love over the past 4 years, when I could really use someone who might not freak out as much about my crying.
I guess I'm starting to like most of the people at work more (except for Trevor who continues to be a complete d-bag), but I still don't really like the actual work. After hosting on Friday with Tasha I am deeply relieved that I'm now a primary cashier, as much as I honestly dislike doing that. I'd rather be a busser. That is one easy job. Very low-stress. Plus you get tipped out. Which I kinda need to supplement my $15/week paychecks.
So I have the feeling that I'm about to get my period because I just had a conversation with my grandma over the phone that almost made me break down crying. And I've been very annoyed recently. Incessantly. And that'll be fun :-/ I hope it's not a repeat of last month.
I wish Tucker wasn't still reading my Twilight, because I'd kind of like to re-re-read it. Or anything really. I should have gotten another book on Friday; who was I kidding thinking that one would last me all weekend? I could...have gone to the library yesterday and checked out one of the other two in that series, but I didn't. I also want to read The Host, but I have yet to. I think I might wait until it's at the library in case it's not as awesome as Twilight. Or I might get it later this month when I go to Borders to read the first chapter of Breaking Dawn (which, by the way, is going to kill me. Hardcore. Like, more than seeing the Twilight teaser trailer (which killed me approximately 8 times) because I know what's going to happen in that movie. The book is a complete unknown.)
Aww, the hot guy who was visiting next door left. Shame. Good news...totally got distracted and now I have no idea what I was about to say. But oh well. I must now go. Adieu.