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[blissfullstar]

It feels weird to be home. I do not like it :-\ I suprisingly want to go back although i barely like it there either. I do...weird to type while jesse is right behind me "helping" Well I came home for the weekend (obviously) and I dated James for a day. bahahahaha. The only thing the has felt normal while being here is spending time with Zach. I do

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Drama Queen

[kuppatroppa]

no one is making you feel "unwanted"...everyone has done things to make you more comfortable but you dont realize it you want to be this poor misguided youth that no one pays attenion to...its not working keep telling people that you feel weird being home and that people make you feel unwanted see how that goes for you...

bullshit your going to miss me so much when you go back...you told me that im the reason you want to go back...dont put shit in here that isnt true to make people feel sorry for you...no one that matters made you feel unwanted its a girl you never talk to just like you said...so why are you letting it hurt you so much if nothing is to be lost from the way she acted??? your not going to lose a friendship because shes not your friend...so fucking get over it.

yeah im going to give you shit about you bitching about things that dont matter...i dont matter that much to you...you want to leave me here so i dont meen as much as you say...your holding on to something that isnt there...and i have realized this since you got home. your better off staying in kent. thats where you want to be. remember no one makes you feel wanted here. NO ONE. so why come back??? why cry over people that dont make you feel wanted??? it doesnt make sence at all.

Re: Drama Queen

[blissfullstar]

alright. I went back and read through it. And there was only two people that made me feel unwanted and i have just now explained that too you well at least told you who I was talking about.
Yes I told you that you are the reason I want to go back but guess what, it was out of anger which you should know. We do that shit all the time and I am sorry for saying it because you are the farthest thing from making me want to go back.
The thing with that girl. It was just pissing me off at the time. I am not getting all worked about it. I just needed to get it off my chest.
Zach, I do care about you a lot, if you believe it or not. Think what you want and I will know what I know. I am glad that I got to see you this weekend and hopefully this huge ass argument does not last much longer. I am going to just stay away and let you calm down b/c I know that we are both hurting tremendously(sp?) right now and all I can say is that I am sorry for it all. I love you

Re: Drama Queen

[kuppatroppa]

your not fucking sorry if you were you wouldnt have made me give those things back to you...you promised me that you would never do that again...but you did...last time you did so you said that it was wrong for you to even think about taking them from me...but you did it again...they are gifts you cant fucking take them back after they have been given.

i told you to leave my house and you couldnt do it...this all could have been avoided if you just left like i asked...but you didnt...you acted like a fucking 2 year old banging on my door ringing the bell calling my house all at the same time...then you told me that this isnt my house so i cant tell you not to be here...you fucking told me that my name isnt on the papers...what the fuck???

and you talk about me being immature.

just to let you know i dont want to see you before you leave...maybe that will help you to kent with less trouble.

you have gone to far today for me to just forgive you in a day so you can deal with what happens...my mom isnt comming home tommorow so you wont see her. you can drop my things off on my pourch then leave...maybe this time you will actualy listin when i tell you that i dont want you hear.

Re: Drama Queen

[blissfullstar]

i wasn't expecting you to forgive me all in one day but just to let you know zach if you had actually came to the door i wouldn't have had to do that. maybe if you had a totally different attitude when you told me to leave it would be another story and i told you i would never take that picture again which i gave back the other stuff i am giving back to you tomorrow as i said. I know that I will have to deal with what happens because I have definately done more than you have. Do not worry I hate myself right now too. I will drop them off when i wake up.

Re: Drama Queen

[kuppatroppa]

it shoudnt be that way if i ask you to leave you leave...it doesnt matter how i tell you