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I think I'm having boyfriend withdrawls. I cant sit still. i cant sleep. i'm trying to come up with excuses why i should just talk to him a little bit, why its okay to just see him once in a while, why he's not really that terrible... all the usuals. worst of all I'm staring at my yahoo! messenger waiting for him to log on.
This is not good.
This is pathetic.
Damn.
You're best friends with some one for almost 3 yrs, date and live with them for about 9 months, talk to and see them everyday, hug them, kiss them...whenever you want, sleep with them at night, wake up to them in the morning, you get used to them being a permenent fixture in you life. then you cut them out of it, and you loose a piece of yourself aswell. you become empty. and suddenly everything reminds you of them. and you can remember every song you heard together, where you were, and what parts of your bodies were touching...all the stuff you had taken for granted before, you would give anything to get back now.
but wait- your supposed to be mad.
maybe we could have the whole friends with benifits thing going-- cuz we were both great together.*grins* we could be buddies that relieve sexual tension together. But we arent commited, because we cant stand each other most of the time, and we cant trust each other. But when we're just acting like friends, we get along great. Its when we are commited to each other that we butt heads. We get along the best as friends. so yes- this would work.
Just friends.
occasional sex.
no fighting.
Why do I see this as a ticking time bomb?
Damnit man! if he would just log on i would feel better! jeez. I just want to see him. or even just talk to him for a little while. get an emai. something! even if its fighting i dont care. i dont even care who's wrong or right anymore. i just want a little bit...
yes, these are definately withdrawls.
Log on, Log on, LOG ON!!!
This is not good.
This is pathetic.
Damn.
You're best friends with some one for almost 3 yrs, date and live with them for about 9 months, talk to and see them everyday, hug them, kiss them...whenever you want, sleep with them at night, wake up to them in the morning, you get used to them being a permenent fixture in you life. then you cut them out of it, and you loose a piece of yourself aswell. you become empty. and suddenly everything reminds you of them. and you can remember every song you heard together, where you were, and what parts of your bodies were touching...all the stuff you had taken for granted before, you would give anything to get back now.
but wait- your supposed to be mad.
maybe we could have the whole friends with benifits thing going-- cuz we were both great together.*grins* we could be buddies that relieve sexual tension together. But we arent commited, because we cant stand each other most of the time, and we cant trust each other. But when we're just acting like friends, we get along great. Its when we are commited to each other that we butt heads. We get along the best as friends. so yes- this would work.
Just friends.
occasional sex.
no fighting.
Why do I see this as a ticking time bomb?
Damnit man! if he would just log on i would feel better! jeez. I just want to see him. or even just talk to him for a little while. get an emai. something! even if its fighting i dont care. i dont even care who's wrong or right anymore. i just want a little bit...
yes, these are definately withdrawls.
Log on, Log on, LOG ON!!!