All you wanted
All you needed is somebody that cares...
I had the perfect picture painted in my mind. And of course, nothing went right and the picture became globs of paint that ran together on a harsh plain canvas.
It was so hard to look into your eyes today and not cry. Especially when you would sing. It made me so happy. I just wish I was with you now, just so you could hold me.
I'm sorry for my angst and my tears and my anxiety. I was just so thrilled to see you again, I didn't want to think about how I'd feel if something happened again.
In other news...after reading Kritty's LJ, I went and watched the RENT trailer. As if I haven't done enough crying lately. The first three notes and I was in tears. I cannot wait. I'm so glad so much of the original cast is doing the movie.
Those essays for my makeup exam are haunting me. I'm so scared of them. And I have my f-ing book right here to get the answers from. But 2 pages typed for each answer? Its so difficult. Even the fucking book doesn't have that much written.
Tomorrow I will write them. And clean my room. And go to class. As much as it pains me, I will go to class.
Right now, I just don't want to be alone.
I had the perfect picture painted in my mind. And of course, nothing went right and the picture became globs of paint that ran together on a harsh plain canvas.
It was so hard to look into your eyes today and not cry. Especially when you would sing. It made me so happy. I just wish I was with you now, just so you could hold me.
I'm sorry for my angst and my tears and my anxiety. I was just so thrilled to see you again, I didn't want to think about how I'd feel if something happened again.
In other news...after reading Kritty's LJ, I went and watched the RENT trailer. As if I haven't done enough crying lately. The first three notes and I was in tears. I cannot wait. I'm so glad so much of the original cast is doing the movie.
Those essays for my makeup exam are haunting me. I'm so scared of them. And I have my f-ing book right here to get the answers from. But 2 pages typed for each answer? Its so difficult. Even the fucking book doesn't have that much written.
Tomorrow I will write them. And clean my room. And go to class. As much as it pains me, I will go to class.
Right now, I just don't want to be alone.