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Today sucks.
I went home early cuz I'm sick. And I'm getting worse. I'm coughing like a chain smoker, and I'm not a chain smoker. I'm barely even a smoker.
I'm all pissy about stupid people who lie to me. I'm tired of people abandoning me when I have a problem. Somebody asked me one day is Courtney was my best friend, and I was like, "I don't know. sure. I don't really have best friends." And I haven't had one since Doug. I've had 2 eral best friends.... the first one dicked me over, and then Doug, well, he wouldn't shut up about my habit. Yeah, my friends are the people I date. Other than that, I don't really get close to people. And realizing that pissed me off.
And thanks to my aunt, my mother knows about my Monroe. (I'm not calling it a Madonna cuz I hate Madonna). I came out of my room, and she said, "Why is your face puffy?" then I walked into my room and didn't leave me alone till I said something.
I hate my nose. I hate my throat. I hate my stomach. I hate my fat. I hate my face. I'm one ugly fucker.