With him
☼ I could spend complete and long slow moving hours with him. Sitting side by side sharing everything with eachother. He tells me about his life and how things are going and I tell him about mine. I love it when he listens. With every word spoken softly we learn more and more about eachother. As the conversation gets more interesting and deeper, I move closer. Just enough distance to let him know I want him to hold me. I can feel the warmth of his body as he sits there. He looks at me and I return the glance. He holds out his hand. I gently touch his fingertips waiting for what might come next. Fingers embrace and share a tight but loose grasp. My heart stops as I try and catch my breath. This is all too good to be true. I wish that this one moment in time when I felt like I was his and he was mine. When I felt complete just sitting there holding his hand listening and talking, I want to get that back. I want that feeling of completeness to stay and never leave my body heart or soul again. Time to go. My heart drops thinking this is the last moment I will ever spend with him. Even though we both know its not. He stands. I stand. We face. Embrase. I hug him as he holds me and at that moment every bad thing in the world just disapears. The only thing I could feel was him. I could feel the way I miss him. The way I want so badly to be back with him, even though I know I should learn from the past. Back to reality I let him go. For a brief moment we stare into eachothers eyes. We kiss. ☼
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╚ Back to school today. Not completely wonderful. I accidently set my alarm clock for 5 PM instead of 5 AM. Go figure. Cid ended up waking me up at 5:22 so I still made it on time. I had Mcdonalds for breakfast! Yum! Went to Sandalwood and tried to find my jigga nigga boo Kristen but nope she wasnt there ::tears:: hehe. I walked around the circle with Hector after he messed with Cid for a bit. Then we found Willard and he walked with us to. I saw Kelz waving so I waved back but I had NOOO IDEA she was telling me to get my clothes. Lol. Walked around a bit more until the bell rang and me and Willard went out seperate ways lol. Made it on my boring morning bus okay. I was planning on talking to Kristen(the one on my bus) but I dont think she likes me very much. Something to do with Zach S. but oh well she can get over it.
Made it to school in one piece. Not even tired. Saw Monica and Lyndsey who I missed SOO MUCH! They went to the food store and I went to my locker where I found Chris. We talked and then everyone else showed up and we all headed to our homerooms. I got my new schedule....
± MY PAXON SCHEDULE ±
1A Geometry Honors ~ Trout
2A Creative Writing II ~ Cleghorn
3A World History-Pre IB ~ Dahlgren
4A Biology I-Pre IB ~ Burton
1B Personal Fitness ~ Hodges ((yes everyone go ahead and feel sorry for me))
2B Spanish I ~ Wolrich
3B Latin I ~ Rode
4B English-Pre IB ~ Robinson
Theres not much change in my schedule except for personal fitness. I got Hodges and thats horrible! Every class day we have to run! One day we run two laps the next we run the mile the next two laps the next a mile. I am going to get the exercise I know I need. Lol.
Well that was pretty much my day! Oh and me and Gabe are cool again...
I will talk to you all later. I love you
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