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amazing how one person can effect your life so much. today i purposly wore some different clothes. I have been wearing the same outfit for weeks. i must have looked horrible. I took my meds today ALL of them and im now in the middle of cleaning. I think i could clean all week with no break and still not make a dent, but im trying. I seem to say that a lot. "im trying" i wonder if i always mean it. today i do. I cleaned the bathroom and the fish tank (poor fish, so neglected) now im rounding up clothes to wash. i should get rid of at least half my clothes. it will be easier for moving and really i dont need all these stinking garmets. I am trying to convince myself that it would be good for me to dance and hopefully meet people or a person anyway. So that is my plan for today. lets see, it is 6:21, i have at least 3 hours to make as much progress as possible. where are my fans cheering me on. i always need someone. pathetic