WOW!
This weekend was a lot of fun, i went to my cabin alone on friday to see my parents because i miss them. they have been gone for two weeks and i am a wimp. So sunday night i came home because my buds wanted to see MOI...i feel special... anyway so i had a few peeps over and ya it turned out great in the beginning but then turned out really messed up in the end...my head has been spinning since this occasion and i don't know what to do...i feel so sick to my stomach for what happened, i'm having a hard time dealing with the guilt i have inside of me. It was so surreal to see some one who i care about do things with my best friend....it was so odd. i don't know how to feel, i don't know how to act. I feel so alone inside, its like i am falling into the depths of a god forsaken chamber , that i can't get myself out of. I am ok..i think. Its just really hard to take this all in to do what we did this weekend was wrong and will never happen again..i promise that a thousand times over..and over and over again! but anyway aside from the freaky ass shit that happened on Sunday night i had a great long weekend i'm just afraid for the weekend that's creeping upon us so quickly! AHHH lol anyways see ya guys...i mean girls...haha my bad!