Very Upset...I Wish You Were Here!
This morning i was awakened by the sounds of my daddy saying "Dianne you should get up and come help Marty, He Doesn't look good". So i got up and well my little Miniature Hamster was dying, yes yes i know a lot of you guys think i'm a dumb ass to be so upset about this. Well first it was a gift from Matt like almost two years ago when we were dating, he bought me it b/c he knew how much i loved animals. Now i'm so upset b/c that was the one thing that i kept alive with Matt and my relationship, and now Marty is died...I've been crying for an hour now, and i most likely will be all day too, i'm a wuss when it comes to an animal dying, now all i have left is the past. fuck that sucks! its sad b/c i'm still so in love with Matt, and he doesn't even know it, it hurts to know that the one guy you love doesn't even love you back,i dislike one sided things like this. I wish some days that i could sleep for a thousand years, but than again sleeping for seven hours isn't that bad...