I Scream Down This Hotline Just To Feel Something
um yea. so lets just talk aboutmy weekend since i didnt really do that in here much.
Thursday - Nick, Jamie, Jess and Jenna came over. We attempted to walk to the commons. On our way we met up with Tom, Chris and Anthony? I think his name was. Yea, So they all got side tracked by PIZZA so me and Jamie kept walking. We met some kids that went to catholic school cuz they were staring at us as we were walking past Seneca. Haha it was so funny! Then Me, Keel, Jenna, and Jess walked back cuz we hadda be home for Kristen. And on the way back four guys were like gonna fight and we were gonna call the cops if like something happened.. but we got sidetracked by the ice cream man. so yea
Friday - Jess, Joe, Jenna, Tom, and Matt came over. Me, Jess and Joe hung out in the closet and Tom came in for a little while. he didn't do anything! geez.. i think i did more with Joe than Tom did with Jess, and Tom and Jess are going out! And all I did with Joe was sit on him.. okay Joe kept putting his hand down my pants .. and biting my boobs.. and belly ring.. okay that's it lol. Tom and Jess did nothing. And I lit a match and I didn't think you'd be able to smell it, cause I lit in it the closet. But NOO, and Keelin doesnt have like spray stuff in her room. so I was using lotion lmao. Me and Jenna haha. Then we gave the extra to Matt and Tom. Matt liked it and it sparkled. Tom didnt like it as much tho.. hmmf wonder why.
Saturday - went to Kristen's fashion show. sat on the computer. Keelin was at Jamies and Kristen was at Briannas and then Krosten slept over Alex's and Keelin slept at Jamies.
Sunday - went to A to the NNA's with Joe. we walked and got candy. and then just hung out. I came home helped my fasha close the pool. that was exciting. mhm .. then we had pizza. and then i just sat around. Derek asked Marybeth out. I feel bad cuz I feel like I'm the reason they arent going out. Derek suerly thinks its my fault. He said it right to me. He's like who are you to hold us back.. I'm like fuck you I'm not holding you back. And then I got really really upset and started crying. So I cried myself to sleep. And my mom found out I was crying and she came in and talked to me, but for some reason it made me cry more. I was like hyperventalating. I wanted to talk to Kayla so bad. I needed her so bad last night. It was late tho otherwise I would of called her. Oh well I fell asleep so I'm fine.
=( I have a severe problem. I like my friend. He's like my bestest friend everevereverver. And I don't wanna date him cuz like if anything happened, I think I'd die. and idk what to dooo. Someone help me. I think this contributed to my crying last night. I don't wanna lose him.. idk whats going on. and then i think i still might have feelings for derek idk why! he hurt me so bad. whatever. guys are so confusing err. Well I have to go to school now so I guess I'll leave and whatever. Be Back Later
♥ Katie