I want to understand...
The more I think about this situation the less I understand. I mean how did it come to get so out of control. I thought I had everything figured out. I thought I had come to know what lies deep inside the soul. I thought I knew what was wanted. I wanted to just be happy. Not only for me. I feel like I am being avoided, like I am avoiding. I can't even get my thoughts straight. I just want this to end. I want the rain to come after a long drought. Life is stupid at times, and one must learn to roll with the punches. I am tired of crying every night trying to figure out what went wrong. I am tired of feeling pain. Of putting on a mask everday and pretending I am happy. I swear I deserve an oscar. I am a fabulous actress. Even now as I type my eyes fill up with tears that start to go down my cheek. (best stop that since I am in Crawfords)I am going to leave this in the past in hopes of moving on and finding some happiness, if it still excists. If you feel the same way too than lets do something about it, to be happy again, like we once were.
Halloween yesterday. worked. left early place was deserted. Tony made me laugh. That silly goose. i work with him today. yay!
dammit i was gonna talk about some funny stuff that happened yesterday, but my vision is too blurry to see the screen.
Adios.
Halloween yesterday. worked. left early place was deserted. Tony made me laugh. That silly goose. i work with him today. yay!
dammit i was gonna talk about some funny stuff that happened yesterday, but my vision is too blurry to see the screen.
Adios.