Update.....
Wishin and hopin....what does that do anymore?
I just don`t get things anymore. At times I feel like it couldn`t get any worse. I miss someone and I just hope that he could be here right now because something medically is wrong with me and what they told me has me scared "shitless". And I know that it seems like that there is something always wrong with me but for awhile there hasn`t but today I heard something so terrible I couldn`t even bare to tell anyone but Bucky and Chris because I knew it would scare my parents more than me. So tomorrow I have to go back to the doctors for round three of test so pray for me.
On another note I feel like I lost a chunk of my heart. Sometimes I wish I could back in time and rearrange things and I also wish that this life is just one big nightmare and I`ll wkake up back in your arms where I belong.
All I gotta say is I know you say things have to change but not like this. I just beg that you`ll see that. Right now I need you. Really badly and I promise that this time around it will be different . For you I will. Remember forever and always. At one time that meant something and it can again.
Another update I`m still at the Boo. I like it there, I`m getting to know the girls there better now and I love Kristen there. She is a total sweetheart, Kristen is just an all around bubbley girl. Back to the Boo the money is good a lil shitty on slow nights but still I make decient money.
But kiddies its like 4am and I`m gettin a lil sleepy and I have to be up early for round three. Talk to you soon.
Hugs & Kisses,
Kristen
I just don`t get things anymore. At times I feel like it couldn`t get any worse. I miss someone and I just hope that he could be here right now because something medically is wrong with me and what they told me has me scared "shitless". And I know that it seems like that there is something always wrong with me but for awhile there hasn`t but today I heard something so terrible I couldn`t even bare to tell anyone but Bucky and Chris because I knew it would scare my parents more than me. So tomorrow I have to go back to the doctors for round three of test so pray for me.
On another note I feel like I lost a chunk of my heart. Sometimes I wish I could back in time and rearrange things and I also wish that this life is just one big nightmare and I`ll wkake up back in your arms where I belong.
All I gotta say is I know you say things have to change but not like this. I just beg that you`ll see that. Right now I need you. Really badly and I promise that this time around it will be different . For you I will. Remember forever and always. At one time that meant something and it can again.
Another update I`m still at the Boo. I like it there, I`m getting to know the girls there better now and I love Kristen there. She is a total sweetheart, Kristen is just an all around bubbley girl. Back to the Boo the money is good a lil shitty on slow nights but still I make decient money.
But kiddies its like 4am and I`m gettin a lil sleepy and I have to be up early for round three. Talk to you soon.
Hugs & Kisses,
Kristen