on the subject of marriage
i haven't written in here in a while. maybe cause nothing has caused me to think hard enough to come up with anything good enough to write in here. and also there is no turbulation in my love lif.e it's perfect. minus the miles.
but today dick, the guy i was playing tennis with me, a significantly older guy was telling me about his wife's horrible divorce from her first husband, and some of his friends horrible divorces and affairs and tragedies that were marriage related. and he told me that i was young and innocent and idealistic and will soon with time realize how real and sad and painful the world is...
this really depressed me...
now i am as old school traditional as they come when talking about marriage. i think it's a beautiful thing. two people beginning and ending every day together and sharing the most intimate things with each other and being each other's lover and best friend and should ande rock and stone to lean on all in one.
but i agree. i see and hear and watch divorces all around me. affairs that seem so hyped. common. typical. that is one of my greatest fears. being a part of that common occurance. i dont tihnk anything ocvuld ever hurt me more than someone i love and have given all of me to cheating on me.
but this society has a problem.
my thoughts on that are....
since day one... kindergarden, we are asked as a hobbie to portray our ideal man, our own ken barbie. at that point it's about creativity. but as we get older, we have more demands more expectations, the details that we require become finer. the people like that quickly decrease to possible no one. and we become obbessed with this ressume or checklist of requirements... and we all, being egostical or maybe jsut confident, decide that we deserve nothing less than what we want.
what we want.... want....
but! that's wrong. that's stupid
i think people will find the right people and have successful marriages if the find the people they need, not the people they want. the people that can give them all the support, all the happiness that they crave. cause looks only last a second. but that need for security, love, and happiness last a lifetime.
people will find their partners for life is they realize what they are out there searching for in the bars, frats, dating services, is not pages of check marked requirements, but someone who is what they need and to whom they satisfy their needs.
so despite a depressing day on the hopeless romance front.
i want to get married. i can't wait to get married. and i set no expectations as to when or where or how or to whom i get married. cause it will be someone i need, and i will do anything to have them if they need me too.
sigh. fuck rebellion and risque life. married life sounds nice.
wow. i'm 19. this is wierd.
but today dick, the guy i was playing tennis with me, a significantly older guy was telling me about his wife's horrible divorce from her first husband, and some of his friends horrible divorces and affairs and tragedies that were marriage related. and he told me that i was young and innocent and idealistic and will soon with time realize how real and sad and painful the world is...
this really depressed me...
now i am as old school traditional as they come when talking about marriage. i think it's a beautiful thing. two people beginning and ending every day together and sharing the most intimate things with each other and being each other's lover and best friend and should ande rock and stone to lean on all in one.
but i agree. i see and hear and watch divorces all around me. affairs that seem so hyped. common. typical. that is one of my greatest fears. being a part of that common occurance. i dont tihnk anything ocvuld ever hurt me more than someone i love and have given all of me to cheating on me.
but this society has a problem.
my thoughts on that are....
since day one... kindergarden, we are asked as a hobbie to portray our ideal man, our own ken barbie. at that point it's about creativity. but as we get older, we have more demands more expectations, the details that we require become finer. the people like that quickly decrease to possible no one. and we become obbessed with this ressume or checklist of requirements... and we all, being egostical or maybe jsut confident, decide that we deserve nothing less than what we want.
what we want.... want....
but! that's wrong. that's stupid
i think people will find the right people and have successful marriages if the find the people they need, not the people they want. the people that can give them all the support, all the happiness that they crave. cause looks only last a second. but that need for security, love, and happiness last a lifetime.
people will find their partners for life is they realize what they are out there searching for in the bars, frats, dating services, is not pages of check marked requirements, but someone who is what they need and to whom they satisfy their needs.
so despite a depressing day on the hopeless romance front.
i want to get married. i can't wait to get married. and i set no expectations as to when or where or how or to whom i get married. cause it will be someone i need, and i will do anything to have them if they need me too.
sigh. fuck rebellion and risque life. married life sounds nice.
wow. i'm 19. this is wierd.