it's sad when trust like that is lost.

[blinkofaneye]

sometimes being nice and sweet and forgiving hurts like a bitch. it definately only makes me less attractive and desirable. more taken for granted. maybe them penn girls are right. and maria. be a princess and demand what you deserve. otherwise you'll just end up being upset and then apologized to time and time again.

feeling uneasy with jeremy.
whatever is in your mind verses what your actions imply. and the thoughts you should have had but didn't before your actions... that hurts. undeserved hurt.
and i've felt it before. just a much greater hurt. but niether was, is, or will ever be deserved.
at least you were honest. but doesn't make you any better than the other penn assholes.

sometimes do you ever just want to get away. for a while. without anyone else you know. that's what i want to do with my month in maine. if i get it. praying i do. get away. where the only familiar things are things that will be there for eternity. the sun heated rocks. cold cold ocean water, my beloved thunderhole where i can sit enchanted for hours. the dry dirted carriage roads that wrap themselves around the island like pretty bows. where my body will fall in love. a stress free worry free mutual love, innocent and sophisticated all at once.

all i gotta say is lucky there is a country and an ocean between us.