Everything is unclear.....
Tomorrow's just another day, another way to spend my day, all by myself....
Jail is no fun. Now that I have accomplised my life long goal of getting arrested once before I die... I think my quota is filled. No more jail for Angel.
I hit the kicker snowboarding today. That was fun. I was trying to land a 180... but I still haven't quite got it. Bleh....
Oh and just in case you were wondering ( I am sure soooo many of you are truly interested ) I am back to the cat lady theory... only this time, I am posative it is in my destiny. How scary to know the only way I can end my suffering and prevent myself from searching for the famous myth about true love and fate is by ending my life. Calm down, calm down, I couldn't do it. I wouldn't. I mean... just because I have to suffer, why do those few people who love me have to as well? Si? Maybe I can freeze my heart, and all of my emotions while I am at it... because I hate this.... I hate this. I must truly be a bad person. I mean, my ex thinks so, and the things I do people don't approve of. Maybe I have been blinded to my own evil. Is it possible?
Please, don't comment with the expected "your not a bad person" or "you'll find love, just give it time"...
I have heard them... and I no longer care to hear such false promises.... only to feed my bundle of hope. I don't know how many more times I can be let down.....
Jail is no fun. Now that I have accomplised my life long goal of getting arrested once before I die... I think my quota is filled. No more jail for Angel.
I hit the kicker snowboarding today. That was fun. I was trying to land a 180... but I still haven't quite got it. Bleh....
Oh and just in case you were wondering ( I am sure soooo many of you are truly interested ) I am back to the cat lady theory... only this time, I am posative it is in my destiny. How scary to know the only way I can end my suffering and prevent myself from searching for the famous myth about true love and fate is by ending my life. Calm down, calm down, I couldn't do it. I wouldn't. I mean... just because I have to suffer, why do those few people who love me have to as well? Si? Maybe I can freeze my heart, and all of my emotions while I am at it... because I hate this.... I hate this. I must truly be a bad person. I mean, my ex thinks so, and the things I do people don't approve of. Maybe I have been blinded to my own evil. Is it possible?
Please, don't comment with the expected "your not a bad person" or "you'll find love, just give it time"...
I have heard them... and I no longer care to hear such false promises.... only to feed my bundle of hope. I don't know how many more times I can be let down.....