Who's Sleeping on my side of the bed tonight?
Like any heart bloody woman, I have simply wanted an object to crave.
People are moving on. My ex has already found a new girl friend.... might I add she is annoying and not very attractive. Ok, sorry that was mean. I'm not going to lie, I am just insanely jealous he has moved on so fast, because that is not how it is for me.
Nothing is For Sure (c) Angel Coon
Nothing is what it is supposed to be. Nothing is for sure
The ground that holds me up is never guarenteed to be there tomorrow. The happy laughs of all my friends are not assured to be as happy. And your love is not there for always, although I thought it was. All my faith in you...and all the pain I had you took away. And your love- you gave. I must have taken it for granted. Truly believing in Romeo and Juliet. But now- where art thou Romeo? Because his love he does not send.
Oh, Lord, my ground is so shaky. Everywhere I turn, beliefs become lies. The one thing I believed to be true has now disappeared into the universe of you.
Rah I hate this. I am never going to leave this place I find myself in. No matter how happy I seem to be in one particular moment... I am still here. I cannot leave. And I hate it. I feel like my world just keeps going for nothing because my position in life is not progressing. Im still sad... Im still alone. I have no one.
My Song to the one Who Has Forgotten Me:
I want you to know
that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but
the best for you both
Im no diversion of me
Is she perverted like me?
Would she go down on you in a theater?
Does she speak eloquently?
And would she have your baby?
Im sure she'd make a really excellent mother.
Cuz the love that you gave that we made wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide
And every time you speak her name does she know that you told me you'd hold me until you die
And Im here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair
To deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you, outta know
You seem very well
Things look peaceful
Im not quite as well
I thought you should know
Did you forgot about me, Mr. Timothy
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
But it was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
And are you thinking of me when you fuck her?
Cuz the love that you gave that we made wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide
And every time you speak her name does she know that you told me you'd hold me until you die
And Im here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair
To deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you, outta know
Cuz the joke that you made in the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade as soon as you close your eyes, no
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back I hope you feel
Well can you feel it?
I know what you are thinking.... i left you. I didn't leave you. I still loved you. you left me. and I know you are sorry. But sorry isn't mending my broken heart... nor making me feel any better. so for that, I hate you.
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So although I cannot leave this place... I have been having some fun. I met someone... not sure where that is going if anywhere. It probably wont. That would be my luck. Supposedly I'm stupid. I dont care. Thats how it is then. Im stupid. RAH. I am so tired... i am rambling. Let me write some more when I am competent.
<3 Angel
People are moving on. My ex has already found a new girl friend.... might I add she is annoying and not very attractive. Ok, sorry that was mean. I'm not going to lie, I am just insanely jealous he has moved on so fast, because that is not how it is for me.
Nothing is For Sure (c) Angel Coon
Nothing is what it is supposed to be. Nothing is for sure
The ground that holds me up is never guarenteed to be there tomorrow. The happy laughs of all my friends are not assured to be as happy. And your love is not there for always, although I thought it was. All my faith in you...and all the pain I had you took away. And your love- you gave. I must have taken it for granted. Truly believing in Romeo and Juliet. But now- where art thou Romeo? Because his love he does not send.
Oh, Lord, my ground is so shaky. Everywhere I turn, beliefs become lies. The one thing I believed to be true has now disappeared into the universe of you.
Rah I hate this. I am never going to leave this place I find myself in. No matter how happy I seem to be in one particular moment... I am still here. I cannot leave. And I hate it. I feel like my world just keeps going for nothing because my position in life is not progressing. Im still sad... Im still alone. I have no one.
My Song to the one Who Has Forgotten Me:
I want you to know
that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but
the best for you both
Im no diversion of me
Is she perverted like me?
Would she go down on you in a theater?
Does she speak eloquently?
And would she have your baby?
Im sure she'd make a really excellent mother.
Cuz the love that you gave that we made wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide
And every time you speak her name does she know that you told me you'd hold me until you die
And Im here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair
To deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you, outta know
You seem very well
Things look peaceful
Im not quite as well
I thought you should know
Did you forgot about me, Mr. Timothy
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
But it was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
And are you thinking of me when you fuck her?
Cuz the love that you gave that we made wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide
And every time you speak her name does she know that you told me you'd hold me until you die
And Im here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair
To deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you, outta know
Cuz the joke that you made in the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade as soon as you close your eyes, no
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back I hope you feel
Well can you feel it?
I know what you are thinking.... i left you. I didn't leave you. I still loved you. you left me. and I know you are sorry. But sorry isn't mending my broken heart... nor making me feel any better. so for that, I hate you.
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So although I cannot leave this place... I have been having some fun. I met someone... not sure where that is going if anywhere. It probably wont. That would be my luck. Supposedly I'm stupid. I dont care. Thats how it is then. Im stupid. RAH. I am so tired... i am rambling. Let me write some more when I am competent.
<3 Angel