soo yeaa ....life....
so summer so far is defintely suckin. In the beginning i was workin 5 days a week. 3 of them bein nites. during that time on the off days i slept. then they cut it 2 four to give sum one else, leaves me with 3 free days, however on those days it always seems like no one is around. aside from a few good nites with swing allison steve amor n yla, thers been nothing. im sure theres nore good nites 2 come but who knows. my family is goin on vaction this comin week. since i hate my mother lately im rebellin n not goin but where does that leave me: at home alone for 7 days with nothing to do. im sure ill find things during the course of that week but i would like 2 have sum plans made, if ne one wants to chill, call me. ive been tryin 2 be more positive n not so negative. ive been tryin 2 be nicer to my siblings n family but the truth is they arent nice to me at all. my mom wants evrything done for her n only her, she gives me a hard t ime about evrything. she yells at me when i sit home n cant understand i dunt wanan be out in 100 degree heat. ive hated the heat since i was a lil kid. she does things like rent a beach house to spite me n forget the college thing, shes on my back evrynite, evrytime she goes online she decides to be real smart n look stuff n ask me questions she knows i dunt know the answers to. shes retarded, she never went 2 college, she got married n had me, i dunt want a kid outta hs so im goin 2 college. my mom might just have 2 accept middlesex or brookdale czu my grades arent that great n stupid thinks evry college in NJ is commutable. my car is good but not good enuff to drive 2 hrs each way evryday. evrything jsut pisses me off. so sick n tired of ppl bein ur friend when its convenient for them to be. ther have been 2 ppl who have actually listend n given me advice this past week, evry time i try n talk 2 the thrid one i always go to since 8thj grade, she says aww but i gg we'll talk 2 morrow, n guess wut? we dunt talk the next day. ppl change but god it sucks. im happy with sum ppl. moat ppl thers jsut one ot 2 n my family that piss me off. n guys dunt even start, lets be friends, i think that would be best. bullshyt, if u really wanted 2 jsut be friends nothing wouldve happend the other nite n a friendship wouldnt be weirded out. so this is life in a nutshell, lets see who cares?