Feb 27th a day ill NEVER forget :'(
wen i was really little i remeber always goin to be wit my g*parents (my dads parents)they lived so close....when noone could get me to sleep my g*pa would take me on his rocker n rock me to sleep...n everytime he did that we both fell asleep...it was the best being over there...we always did fun stuff...while my g*pa was stilll workin me n my g*ma would go to the dollar store n buy a crap load of candy...she would bring her BIG purse..(this thing was like a breaf case) fill it wit the candy n go to the movies..we would go shopping after then head home....made dinner then wen my G*pa got home (usually 2 am) he would come in..kiss me on the forehead n say im home...ill c ya wen u wake up..then about 2 years ago they told all of us they were moving upnorth :'( we all helped them pack n get the house readE...i love that house...we packed everything up n were about to head up to their new house...but they couldnt get me out of the house...it was so hard for me cuz to this day i still remember all the holiday partE's we had there...makin mud pies in the back yard wit my cousin alexandria while my g*ma would work on her flowers...things were PERFECT....i got in my dads truck wit my g*parents dog douglas(R.I.P) took one last look at the house n didnt take my eyes off of it til it wasnt in view ne more....got upnorth n all of us stayed the first nite there together :) it was fun...i remember wen i was wit my dad b4 i started working we would call everyone n all of us would go upnorth to see g*ma n g*pa n douglas...it was fun being up there....the times it was just me stayin wit them were also very fun...me my g*parents would go bowling (8 lane bowling ally)then leave around 1am go back to their house n eat hehe...thne those other nites..we just stayed home...my g*ma would go to bed around 1030 n me n my g*pa would still be up...he would be sittin in his chair n i would be on the computer...we would stay up til 430 just talkin n bein stupid hehe....since then ALOT of things have changed for the worse...to top it off their dog died n my g*ma was a reck...then one WED in aug. my dad came n got me n told me my g*pa had lucemia...he picked me up n went downt the street to my cousin anthony's house cuz he wanted to see me...we went n it was hard....then my g*parents came down for our church (st.malicy(sp) festival...everyone asked where he was n we wernt sure they were coming :-/ it was so hard to tell ppl he was sick :-/....i was with jessica n john wen my g*parents showed up....my g*ma is as skinny as i am n my g*pa looked good...i gave him the biggest hug EVER....things were lookin good...after the 3 days they were headed back up north wen my g*pa passed out...ever since that day they havent been up to their house...my g*pa was in n out of the hospital all the time...the good thing was they were back down here n i could see them ne time i wanted....then last sunday i was with dad...he told me my g*pa was back in the hospitl....i wanted to go see him but he was in ICU n this time i wasnt allowed in there :'(...then yesterday comes...first i wanted to go bowling...so i called got times n how much n everything...then ppl had stuff to do so we didnt go :-/ then i went to meijor wit my mom n g*ma (her mom)OMG got in a HUGE fight..got home n didnt say ne thing to her....i was laying down watchin independance day wen she walks in...her eyes were watery..she had told me that my g*pa had a serious stroke n my dad went to go get my g*ma n aunt geri while my uncle steve n uncle mark met them downtown @ the hospital....my g*pa woke up but then became unconcious...this is where it all began...after my mom told me that i texted my dad n told him to go into the room n tell my g*pa that i love him...he texted me back n said i alreadE did....i decided to find all my pics i have of him to put up...it was the part in the movie wen the mom dies...i had the pictures in my hand n my cell next to me....rite wen the little girl finds out her mom has died my phone beeped...i had a text...9:13...grandpa just passed away....at that time i broke down....my room is trashed n i fell over so many things n broke a crap load of glass things....i have cuts n bruises all on my back n legs...i ran to my mom (who was on the couch watchin tv)she asked wat was the matter n if my dad called....i managed to say he's gone n showed her the text...I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY....i couldnt stop thinkin he's actually gone n i wasnt there :'(...my aunt joann (my g*pas sister)n uncle chuck n mike n nancy r commin up from florida sometime today...everyone kept sayin at least he's not in pain ne more..yeah i kno that but its sooooooo freakin hard to accept i wont see him again...i wont be able to hear all the funE storise he told me....no more super big hugs hehe....no more makin funE faces at my g*ma behind her back...then blaming it on eachother....i managed to fall asleep only holding onto the heart pillow they gave me wen they moved n the pictures in my other hand...i woke up at 5:30 today n broke down again....managed to get readE for school n left...this whole day i didnt do ne thing in school...i coudlnt...i kept replaying last nite in my head...wen my mom gets offa work he's callin...we're goin to pick out outfits for the funeral :-/....i prob wont be in school the rest of the week....they r lettin me spend ALOT of time wit my g*ma...the only good thing that came outa this is he's no longer in pain...we all want my g*ma to move back down here n stay wit her sister n all of us will use their house upnorth...
FEB 27,2005 @ 9:12
R.I.P G*PA....U WERE THE BEST N I WISH I WAS THERE B4 IT HAPPENED....