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[blinkingwfists]

im so angry right now. i give up on trying to make things be happy. in fact i hope everything goes wrong for me. it seems like everyone else thinks the worst will happen to me anyways. i wish i could just start my life over again. theres so much i would do different. im just a bad person who doesent deserve anything good. fuck everything. i need something new. no ones doing it for me, and no one gives a fuck. i regret so much, ive done so much wrong, ive wronged so many people, and ive hurt so many people. i havent told people i love you enough, and i looked out for myself to much. fuck me, im such a fucking bastard.

i keep going over the time i met so and so or said hello to so and so and i cant help but think they would have been better off not even knowing i existed. so unfair of me to barge my wain in to someones life. i dont care if anyone hates me anymore i deserve it. ive had this coming, and im sorry for hurting anyone.

i always knew i was just a giant waste, but i finally accepted it tonight, i just thought you should know.

garett