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I should be studying right now for the accounting exam I have tomorrow that I'm 90% sure I'm going to fail. It's funny how you think you have things figured out but then you get into it and you kinda go, "Hey wait, this isn't what I was expecting." I really thought I liked and understood accounting - maybe it's just this professor, maybe it's just this particular area of accounting, or maybe it's just that I can't stay awake or pay attention in that class to save my life or maybe I'm not supposed to be doing something with accounting. Err.... I don't want to be like all the other people who change their major 5 times before figuring out what they want to do - I want this to work, I've invested too much in this already, I can't have this turn out to be the wrong thing. I really need a break from school - It was ok before I started back at work.
Now, work stresses me out, granted I get to study while I'm there if it's a slow day but my boss lately has been being a fucking cunt-bag and just making it impossible for me to focus on studying while I'm there because she's so irritating.
Today she bitched at me for stupid shit, one thing I didn't even do but she had to tell me I did it wrong anyway. So, I was busy weighing the alcohol when she approached me, so while she's talking to me I'm continuing with what I'm supposed to be doing and she's like, "Can you stop and pay attention to me?" I wanted to turn and be like, "Unfortunately, I am paying attention to you. I just happen to be able to do more than one thing at once and not fuck up either of them or both - which you obviously don't understand." But, I of course (because I'm the good girl) didn't say anything and stopped what I was doing. I didn't look at her though because I knew if I did she'd probably take me to her office to talk to me because if looks had the ability to kill, she would have been dead without a doubt. I just nodded and agreed with every bullshit thing that came out of her mouth, while I fought back the tears and the urge to grab my stuff (and/or the bottle of scotch) and walk out.
She thought she was going to catch me lying about a check that I let someone overwrite, but I told the truth, "Yeah, I had a check that someone overwrote for cash back... " (My fucking initials are on it) "You should have asked before you allowed that if you didn't know what the policy was. What if that check were to bounce, we'd be out $50. We don't allow people to overwrite unless they purchase something either." "He did purchase something." She kept rambling on about the policy that she had already stated about 3 or more times by this point. Ugh, I just wanted to tell her to take the $50 out of my paycheck if the goddamn check bounced if it would have made her shut up and leave me alone.
I had so many things on my mind already by 10am that I just didn't need her nagging me or getting in my face, with her bad breath.
All I want to do is sleep.. today's been an emotional roller coaster and unfortunately it got stuck at the bottom of the hill and is going to stay there until I hear his voice and know that he's ok and this gnawing feeling can go away.
Now, work stresses me out, granted I get to study while I'm there if it's a slow day but my boss lately has been being a fucking cunt-bag and just making it impossible for me to focus on studying while I'm there because she's so irritating.
Today she bitched at me for stupid shit, one thing I didn't even do but she had to tell me I did it wrong anyway. So, I was busy weighing the alcohol when she approached me, so while she's talking to me I'm continuing with what I'm supposed to be doing and she's like, "Can you stop and pay attention to me?" I wanted to turn and be like, "Unfortunately, I am paying attention to you. I just happen to be able to do more than one thing at once and not fuck up either of them or both - which you obviously don't understand." But, I of course (because I'm the good girl) didn't say anything and stopped what I was doing. I didn't look at her though because I knew if I did she'd probably take me to her office to talk to me because if looks had the ability to kill, she would have been dead without a doubt. I just nodded and agreed with every bullshit thing that came out of her mouth, while I fought back the tears and the urge to grab my stuff (and/or the bottle of scotch) and walk out.
She thought she was going to catch me lying about a check that I let someone overwrite, but I told the truth, "Yeah, I had a check that someone overwrote for cash back... " (My fucking initials are on it) "You should have asked before you allowed that if you didn't know what the policy was. What if that check were to bounce, we'd be out $50. We don't allow people to overwrite unless they purchase something either." "He did purchase something." She kept rambling on about the policy that she had already stated about 3 or more times by this point. Ugh, I just wanted to tell her to take the $50 out of my paycheck if the goddamn check bounced if it would have made her shut up and leave me alone.
I had so many things on my mind already by 10am that I just didn't need her nagging me or getting in my face, with her bad breath.
All I want to do is sleep.. today's been an emotional roller coaster and unfortunately it got stuck at the bottom of the hill and is going to stay there until I hear his voice and know that he's ok and this gnawing feeling can go away.