everything sucks when you're gone
okay so note the mood.. i feel shitty. physically and emotionally/mentally/whatthefuckever. so this is going to be a complaining post.. if you dont want to read it.. fuck off.
so today was the first day of school.. thats enough to depress a person by itself but the reason it pissed me off more than usual is that sister bev is a bonafide jew. she is the jewiest jew in jew town. jewwww. sorry. but yeah i dont have any classes with my megans, tori or liz, hels or court and only like two with dani and kellie. im not very happy with that. and i dont know.. i always feel out of place at school anyway due most likely to the fact that like me most people there find me to be annoying. and rightfully so. but yeah i dont like being there much. plus i had double bio on my first day where lanier proceeded to tell us that we were doing the most difficult concept of the year as our first unit. OH THE FUCKING JOOOOOOOOOY. but yeah so school sucks.
my dad left to go up with my mom and the rest of my family this morning and i would give just about anything to have gone with him. i want to be with my family so bad right now. and im barely getting any information at all. the only time i find anything out is when someone like mentions it to me or like every other day when i call because i always miss their calls. (for anyone who doesnt talk to me that often my grandma who lives in the poconos was diagnosed with pulminary fibrosis today and thats what im bitching about). but yeah.. i really really hate being here while she gets sicker and sicker. i just wanna go see her so bad.. and i hate not having my parents here. i love my other grandma whose staying with us but i really miss my parents and i cant expect her to take me places so i dunno how im getting to the scrimmage tomorrow if i go. maybe i'll ask kellie if shes going.
i dunno it just feels like everythings coming down around me and just as school and football season start too. i love football season i really do but it means i have less time to spend with el and it just sucks. dammit.
so today was the first day of school.. thats enough to depress a person by itself but the reason it pissed me off more than usual is that sister bev is a bonafide jew. she is the jewiest jew in jew town. jewwww. sorry. but yeah i dont have any classes with my megans, tori or liz, hels or court and only like two with dani and kellie. im not very happy with that. and i dont know.. i always feel out of place at school anyway due most likely to the fact that like me most people there find me to be annoying. and rightfully so. but yeah i dont like being there much. plus i had double bio on my first day where lanier proceeded to tell us that we were doing the most difficult concept of the year as our first unit. OH THE FUCKING JOOOOOOOOOY. but yeah so school sucks.
my dad left to go up with my mom and the rest of my family this morning and i would give just about anything to have gone with him. i want to be with my family so bad right now. and im barely getting any information at all. the only time i find anything out is when someone like mentions it to me or like every other day when i call because i always miss their calls. (for anyone who doesnt talk to me that often my grandma who lives in the poconos was diagnosed with pulminary fibrosis today and thats what im bitching about). but yeah.. i really really hate being here while she gets sicker and sicker. i just wanna go see her so bad.. and i hate not having my parents here. i love my other grandma whose staying with us but i really miss my parents and i cant expect her to take me places so i dunno how im getting to the scrimmage tomorrow if i go. maybe i'll ask kellie if shes going.
i dunno it just feels like everythings coming down around me and just as school and football season start too. i love football season i really do but it means i have less time to spend with el and it just sucks. dammit.