whats been happenin

[blinkergrl]

so... lately, lifes sucked when im at school, but its just so amazing other times... dont you hate that? like it could never be all good or all bad, but theres usually the two extremes present... anyway, im not doing badly in school at all (w/ the exception of possibly ap history, but im hoping for a b... and pre calc, im still diggin myself out of that damn honors grade... anyway) but its just such an agonizing experience to even be there... heres a schedule of a regular school day for me: wake up at 6, be at school usually by like 5 after 7, 7 10 gym, wait a little for actual school to start, organic chem, band, ap history, open, lunch, pre calc, latin, art :), english... and then i have volleyball, usually i get home around 6 30 or 7 occasionally... so i get home, i eat dinner usually, then i do my hw... and sometimes, if ive been like crazy upset from the day, ill go online, and just waste time (in my mothers eyes) talking to people and listening to music, which makes me happy... then i really do my hw, shower, and by this time, its usually like 10 30... and i usually still have more hw to do... so i do that, and i usually actually sleep by like midnight... and then i wake up at 6 and start over... and now on tuesdays i have sat class until 7 30, so that delays everything... im getting sick of not sleeping... like im so exhausted all the time it seems and i hate it bc it makes me dread the day that much more when im so tired... yesterday i only got 5 and a half hours of sleep bc i went to bed at 12 30 (due to some personal family stuff that really makes me cry a lot...) and woke up at 5 30 bc i still had to shower... and so my entire day consisted of yawning and being upset and my eyes were just tearing for no reason bc i was so tired... then i had volleyball (away game at st. e's) and we won and then i came home for a while... then i went out to houlihans which was a really really good time (JOE!!!!) and then back to amys... where i was so tired i pretty much just slept on matt... lol, sorry! and then i came home at like 11 30ish and just immediately went to sleep... did not wash my face, take off my make up, or even pee... i literally threw everything off my bed onto the floor and threw on pjs and flopped into bed... and it felt amazing bc i slept until noon... lol... i was that tired... so, i need to go get some hw done bc today is another busy day but i didnt have school! :) and i have volleyball at 4 30 and then i get to hang out w/ matt... <3 later kids
ps: sorry about the rant in the beginning... i just need to get things out sometimes i guess