Alone... Hello can anyone hear me?
I know i said i would write that night all about camp an shit but... Soooooo damn much has gone down Life is a mess for me one giant Huge mess.. i dont know what to do and it seems that not many care at all.. I mean why would they? they have there perfect lives an are happy with parents that love em an still want them around. I dont think people are thinking i am for real with this whole my mom kicken me out eather, do they think i am joken?... Well i aint!!!i spend most my time Depressed i dont have any ambition any more at all... cause if nobody else cares why should i?
Yep right now my moms at mikes yet again... i have not civily spoken with my mother in over a week i have a few weeks to find a place to live too according to her so this sucks i really am a loser an i will be mostlikely living in a shelter soon.. yeah cause thats always been my life goal to get Nowhere in life... i guess i am just not ment to be Happy? i mean everyone sees me all happy an shit but thats really Not me at all.. inside i am dien i really am... i dont think i even know what its like to be truely happy anymore and it sucks... i dont wanna type n e more.. i cant type i cant think i cant do n e thign at all anymore!!! Ahhhh someone Help Me please.....
No me?
if there was no "me"
would anyone care?
would they cry when they realized
that it was all them that did this to me
the ignorance and the contradiction that they put forth for me
sometimes I try to die
but all I can do is watch the blood trickle from my wrists
and cry
I dreamt dreams before
that have my family and "friends" sitting together
crying over my body.....
laying on the floor lifeless
that is my ultimate desire
I want them to know how I feel everyday
the pain that I deal with
the shame that I go through
the hatred that I come upon
the fear that I try to confront
and the faith that I loose every second