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wow. everything that could have went wrong tonight... went wrong tonight. i'm so upset. i wanna cry.
so adrienne and i get to the theater and vinny and his people weren't there yet so we walked over to barnes & noble for the hell of it. then he called and was like, where are you.. blah blah. so i tell him and he starts walking over and adrienne and i start walking back then like we're passing them and i'm just standing there and finally he realizes it's me and wow. i barely got a hello, no hug, and we said like 4 words to eachother in the whole 15 minutes we were together. i really have no idea, maybe he was just trying to be cool in front of his friends. whatever. so his friends were leaving and literally i start screaming, i'm just like, "JUST GO!" so he did and adrienne and i walked ALL THE WAY from the AMC theater back to bloomfield. it was harsh. i can't even explain. whatever, tonight sucks. i sent vinny a messgae on myspace though that said this:
i'm sorry. i don't even think i have to be, but i am. you probably hate me but that's ok cause i hate myself too.
maybe it was just the wrong time and place. i dunno. i'm rambling. deal with it. or maybe i just wasn't what you thought i was. i just felt bad cause you've been asking to hang out for a while now and this was like the only thing i could think of. i would have had you come over or something but my parents are weird when i'm with guys.
i doubt you'll reply to this or ever talk to me again but whatever. it was nice while it lasted. or something. but if you do actually reply n talk to me and wanna 'start over' then why not.
i can't believe i'm still talking. yea, k bye.
it says he read it. he didn't reply. FUCK HIM, AND FUCK BOYS! i can't wait till jake comes home from florida <3
so adrienne and i get to the theater and vinny and his people weren't there yet so we walked over to barnes & noble for the hell of it. then he called and was like, where are you.. blah blah. so i tell him and he starts walking over and adrienne and i start walking back then like we're passing them and i'm just standing there and finally he realizes it's me and wow. i barely got a hello, no hug, and we said like 4 words to eachother in the whole 15 minutes we were together. i really have no idea, maybe he was just trying to be cool in front of his friends. whatever. so his friends were leaving and literally i start screaming, i'm just like, "JUST GO!" so he did and adrienne and i walked ALL THE WAY from the AMC theater back to bloomfield. it was harsh. i can't even explain. whatever, tonight sucks. i sent vinny a messgae on myspace though that said this:
i'm sorry. i don't even think i have to be, but i am. you probably hate me but that's ok cause i hate myself too.
maybe it was just the wrong time and place. i dunno. i'm rambling. deal with it. or maybe i just wasn't what you thought i was. i just felt bad cause you've been asking to hang out for a while now and this was like the only thing i could think of. i would have had you come over or something but my parents are weird when i'm with guys.
i doubt you'll reply to this or ever talk to me again but whatever. it was nice while it lasted. or something. but if you do actually reply n talk to me and wanna 'start over' then why not.
i can't believe i'm still talking. yea, k bye.
it says he read it. he didn't reply. FUCK HIM, AND FUCK BOYS! i can't wait till jake comes home from florida <3