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"I wanna hate you so bad, but i can't stop this..anymore than you can."
Today was depressing. horrible. miserable. i hate you so much.
So i woke up early, it was like 10:30 or so. I don't know what I did, watched tv and stuff, and then i wen't to the car dealership with my dad and whatever. i dont know then i got home, and michele called. so i called her back. and yea...and then i called christina. i know me and her have been through alot of stuff, but i still know i can go to her and talk to her and everything. and we aren't fighting anymore, and me and chris pretty much patched things up. which is good. "i see you are irish? as am i." "whats as am i? whats as am i?" "jenna move to the other table." "IM DONE THOUGH." "as am i"..haha stupid. yea so i called her. and then i dont know i was crying and stuff..
went outside. sat there listening to dashboard. cried. and than michele and shammi called. and so i talked to them for a while and than i talked to just michele. yea..wen't to the store and than went home..went on a LONGGG walk. very depressing long walk...stupid pointless.
I must be stupid. you break my heart and i go back to the place it all started.
i said i wanted to fix us..i meant i wanted you to fix my heart...so is this your way of proving to me that is over. that i really am wasting my fuckin time.your way of saying ITS DONE WE'VE BEEN DONE. GET THE HELL OVER IT. SEE JENNA! IM OVER IT!!! I'VE ALWAYS BEEN OVER IT!