Reality
...is finally starting to set in again for me. Now I have tons of responsibilities that I have to take care of. I have a car payment that has to be made every month...that means I have to have a job that pays pretty well. If I don't make the payments....my car will be taken from me!! And I REALLY don't want that to happen, because I love my car. I'm having to worry about my student loan coming through for me. I have 17 hrs of classes that I'm taking. My schedule is as follows:
Monday: Math 1110 9:00-9:50, Chemistry 1101 11:00-11:50,
Geography 1010 1:00-1:50, Theater 2011 2:00-2:50
Tuesday: Math 1110 9:00-9:50, Economics 2030 2:00-3:15
Wednesday: Math 1110 9:00-9:50, Chemistry 1101 11:00-11:50,
Geography 1010 1:00-1:50
Thursday: Economics 2030 2:00-3:15, Chemistry 1110 3:30-6:20
Friday: Math 1110 9:00-9:50, Chemistry 1101 11:00-11:50,
Geography 1010 1:00-1:50
And somewhere between all that I will have to have a job. I'm quite nervous about this year...I mean jeez!!! Chem, math, econ....those are going to KILL me!!!! Especially the math. But hey...it's the major I want. I just hope that I can keep my grades up and have a job all at the same time! I applied for a job at the library
so hopefully I will get that job. It shouldn't be too hard.
My boyfriend's dad was in the hospital this week and now is in rehab to get his strength back. My dad's mom was also in the hospital because she was hemorrhaging. So I wasn't too thrilled...because I had to go see her to make my dad happy.
My dad was threating to throw me out of the house if I didn't find a job. The daycare let me go just before my birthday. Which totally sucked!!! I was soooo pissed. So then I got that threat from him...so I got a job and I have been working there for about 2 weeks and I'm only on the schedule for 2 more days. So I'm highly ticked off....I need the money so that I can make my car payment.
My birthday was quite uneventful. I got taken out to eat by my boyfriend and got a flat screen tv from my parents. JOY! Needless to say...I turned 19 and no one really cared much.
I really can't wait to go to school. I'm ready to leave burlington. Don't get me wrong...I love being right around the corner from my bestest...and I'm going to miss her very much. But I have got to get out of this house! It feels like a matter of life or death. My parents gang up on me and just YELL AND YELL at me for no freaking reason. It burns me up inside that they can treat me that way and then say that they love me. If they really loved me they would help me pay for college!!!! But are they....HELL NO!!!! I feel sometimes like I am in a prison. So most of the time I just get out of this house and go hang out with friends. What really makes this easy is that my dad isn't home during the week! THANK GOD!!! I would die if he were.
So the long and the short of it is I have had a weird summer...and am ready to leave here!!!!!! That's all for now! Might write again tomorrow!!
forever and always
your princess
BEKA LEIGH
Monday: Math 1110 9:00-9:50, Chemistry 1101 11:00-11:50,
Geography 1010 1:00-1:50, Theater 2011 2:00-2:50
Tuesday: Math 1110 9:00-9:50, Economics 2030 2:00-3:15
Wednesday: Math 1110 9:00-9:50, Chemistry 1101 11:00-11:50,
Geography 1010 1:00-1:50
Thursday: Economics 2030 2:00-3:15, Chemistry 1110 3:30-6:20
Friday: Math 1110 9:00-9:50, Chemistry 1101 11:00-11:50,
Geography 1010 1:00-1:50
And somewhere between all that I will have to have a job. I'm quite nervous about this year...I mean jeez!!! Chem, math, econ....those are going to KILL me!!!! Especially the math. But hey...it's the major I want. I just hope that I can keep my grades up and have a job all at the same time! I applied for a job at the library
so hopefully I will get that job. It shouldn't be too hard.
My boyfriend's dad was in the hospital this week and now is in rehab to get his strength back. My dad's mom was also in the hospital because she was hemorrhaging. So I wasn't too thrilled...because I had to go see her to make my dad happy.
My dad was threating to throw me out of the house if I didn't find a job. The daycare let me go just before my birthday. Which totally sucked!!! I was soooo pissed. So then I got that threat from him...so I got a job and I have been working there for about 2 weeks and I'm only on the schedule for 2 more days. So I'm highly ticked off....I need the money so that I can make my car payment.
My birthday was quite uneventful. I got taken out to eat by my boyfriend and got a flat screen tv from my parents. JOY! Needless to say...I turned 19 and no one really cared much.
I really can't wait to go to school. I'm ready to leave burlington. Don't get me wrong...I love being right around the corner from my bestest...and I'm going to miss her very much. But I have got to get out of this house! It feels like a matter of life or death. My parents gang up on me and just YELL AND YELL at me for no freaking reason. It burns me up inside that they can treat me that way and then say that they love me. If they really loved me they would help me pay for college!!!! But are they....HELL NO!!!! I feel sometimes like I am in a prison. So most of the time I just get out of this house and go hang out with friends. What really makes this easy is that my dad isn't home during the week! THANK GOD!!! I would die if he were.
So the long and the short of it is I have had a weird summer...and am ready to leave here!!!!!! That's all for now! Might write again tomorrow!!
forever and always
your princess
BEKA LEIGH