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hey peoples what it do? anyways i like never write in this bitch like at all its all fucked up. but anyways, speakin of bein fucked up? im justa lil bit..like 50 cent. but anyways. this summer sucked. but i just keep sayin FUCK IT. you would think id be depressed? but im not. im in the complete state of FUCK IT ALL. i keep comin to all these bumps, that are holdin me back in life. its like when that happens. i just keep smokin and shit and everything seems A WHOLE hell of a lot better. that sounds bad. but shit thats how it is...unless im like fucked up? it seems like im sad, and start thinking about how shit used to be and how i miss it. I feel as if no one understands, its fucked up. School started. which it came really fucking fast. My days atleast go extremely fast, its like im there for a min, and then leave. which is awesome cuz anyone who knows me knows that i basically just hate school. Coop rocks. and is gonna be making me a lot of money.
i got a job at cvs, i quit already though, because the man there made me really unconfortable and asked really werid questions like a fucking freak.
i went back to midstate, which was a good and a bad thing. Im making more money, and doing what i used to do when i liked working there, which is good. I love midstate, the people there are awesome and its like a family. It still has the downfalls though. It makes me think of how shit used to be. When shit was good. And people there remind me of people that i try not to think of cuz it breaks my heart each time i do.
i wish some people would just understand how hard things are. I try to forget and move on. but its to hard when your still caught up in how things used to be. But i duno, i know that things will never be how they used to be. Crying, fuckin off will never bring them back. So i guess the best thing to do is just go to school- get it over with. and work, make money so i can move out this winter. So then i can do whatever the fuck i want. even though i do now. I just need my own space. my own place were i can beat my music at all hours of the night, walk around the whole place butt ass naked if i wanted to lol.
Joe and Tab are thinkin about moving. If they move im gonna move close to them. I couldnt stand not being around my brother. He makes me laugh, and is always there for me. Only guy i know i can trust. Which is fucked up.. Today tab and i were talking on the way home about how i care to much about what joe thinks. Which i do. I dont like my brother thinkin bad shit about me, or being disapointed in me. Hes a main element that keeps me from doing shit i used to do in the past..
Ive been listening to a lot of different kind of music lately. SHIT dont get me wrong though, i SURE DO LISTEN TO DA HIPPITY HOP. but i duno ive been listen to a lot of rock lately. THAT DEEP rock shit. Seems like most of the songs express how i feel in a more compassinate way.
i was planning on goin to sleep real early tonight cuz i was soo tired, but i just cant for some fucking reason, everything i do or think about reminds me of everything. and it really sucks. Just sitting around thinkin about that person, knowing that they dont give a fuck obvously, and there is nothing you can do to change that. Whatever i guess. shit happens, and i know its gonna take time. but fuck, im ready for the time to be over and just get on. cuz damn. im tired of this broken heart feeling.
egh, school in the morning really depresses me. it feels like everytime i close my eyes i gotta wake the fuck back up. egh, i need a new bed. seriously I NEED A NEW ROOM. this room reminds me of to much shit. fucked up egh???
BASICALLY.
i went out to princeton for the homeshow on saturday. IT FELT LIKE I WAS THERE FOREVER. the carnies kept hitting on me everytime i went for a smoke break or something. nasty bastards.
egh im soo bored and about to get fucked up, and pass the fuck out.
peace.
i got a job at cvs, i quit already though, because the man there made me really unconfortable and asked really werid questions like a fucking freak.
i went back to midstate, which was a good and a bad thing. Im making more money, and doing what i used to do when i liked working there, which is good. I love midstate, the people there are awesome and its like a family. It still has the downfalls though. It makes me think of how shit used to be. When shit was good. And people there remind me of people that i try not to think of cuz it breaks my heart each time i do.
i wish some people would just understand how hard things are. I try to forget and move on. but its to hard when your still caught up in how things used to be. But i duno, i know that things will never be how they used to be. Crying, fuckin off will never bring them back. So i guess the best thing to do is just go to school- get it over with. and work, make money so i can move out this winter. So then i can do whatever the fuck i want. even though i do now. I just need my own space. my own place were i can beat my music at all hours of the night, walk around the whole place butt ass naked if i wanted to lol.
Joe and Tab are thinkin about moving. If they move im gonna move close to them. I couldnt stand not being around my brother. He makes me laugh, and is always there for me. Only guy i know i can trust. Which is fucked up.. Today tab and i were talking on the way home about how i care to much about what joe thinks. Which i do. I dont like my brother thinkin bad shit about me, or being disapointed in me. Hes a main element that keeps me from doing shit i used to do in the past..
Ive been listening to a lot of different kind of music lately. SHIT dont get me wrong though, i SURE DO LISTEN TO DA HIPPITY HOP. but i duno ive been listen to a lot of rock lately. THAT DEEP rock shit. Seems like most of the songs express how i feel in a more compassinate way.
i was planning on goin to sleep real early tonight cuz i was soo tired, but i just cant for some fucking reason, everything i do or think about reminds me of everything. and it really sucks. Just sitting around thinkin about that person, knowing that they dont give a fuck obvously, and there is nothing you can do to change that. Whatever i guess. shit happens, and i know its gonna take time. but fuck, im ready for the time to be over and just get on. cuz damn. im tired of this broken heart feeling.
egh, school in the morning really depresses me. it feels like everytime i close my eyes i gotta wake the fuck back up. egh, i need a new bed. seriously I NEED A NEW ROOM. this room reminds me of to much shit. fucked up egh???
BASICALLY.
i went out to princeton for the homeshow on saturday. IT FELT LIKE I WAS THERE FOREVER. the carnies kept hitting on me everytime i went for a smoke break or something. nasty bastards.
egh im soo bored and about to get fucked up, and pass the fuck out.
peace.