no regrets
i do not regret anything, i'm happy that i had jims love for these 3 and a half years, i was just wishing for forever. we had so many good times and there was so much love, and there still is. This is tearing me apart. i don't understand. i don't understand any of this!! i want to scream and throw things and i just want to hurt, and it seems that i will, forever. Everyone keeps telling me that this will get better with time and i don't want it to. I almost feel like i am a part of the story where the ghost of the woman is left to roam forever waiting for her true love, which she already had and was rejected. I will forever be a walking ghost waiting for his return. I will die from a broken heart and i feel like the end of this mortal life is near.
