I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it can't pretend
WM GiRLiE14 (1:54:06 PM): you like then UNTIL they like you..then you run away
WM GiRLiE14 (1:54:14 PM): you jsut like...the...RUNAWAY BRIDE!
WM GiRLiE14 (1:56:40 PM): thats my goal this summer...get charity to date a guy
Chicana26 (1:56:59 PM): i would, i just gotta find a guy i would date
Chicana26 (1:57:20 PM): ne guy who i would date, just wont date me
Chicana26 (1:58:50 PM): maybe they just dont see me as a datable person
Chicana26 (1:58:51 PM): eesh
Chicana26 (1:58:53 PM): crikey
WM GiRLiE14 (1:59:07 PM): you come of as outof their league...i think thats it
Chicana26 (1:59:23 PM): how do I do that?
Chicana26 (1:59:26 PM): am I snobby???
WM GiRLiE14 (2:00:14 PM): not "snobby"...just like "pshh u cant handle me"ish
Chicana26 (2:00:29 PM): haha so basically a bitch lol
WM GiRLiE14 (2:00:45 PM): sometimes!
WM GiRLiE14 (2:01:15 PM): "unattainable" is more the word
Chicana26 (2:02:03 PM): ehh well then they should suck it up
WM GiRLiE14 (2:03:00 PM): guys are afraind of rejection...and the guys who arent...are usually gross...strange how that works out
Chicana26 (2:03:09 PM): yeah i know right?
Chicana26 (2:03:19 PM): well im scared of rejection to! so together we are just a big mess
WM GiRLiE14 (2:03:42 PM): train wreck is more like it...haha
Chicana26 (2:04:11 PM): awesome... my "love" life has the potential of a train wreck
Chicana26 (2:04:14 PM): I am excited
WM GiRLiE14 (2:04:27 PM): glad to have helped clariffy that
Chicana26 (2:04:35 PM): haha oh u helped so much
WM GiRLiE14 (2:05:04 PM): :-)
WM GiRLiE14 (2:05:11 PM): my day is now complete
Chicana26 (2:05:34 PM): haha good
Chicana26 (2:06:42 PM): you should feel good that you have helped me to realize that any sort of interaction with the male kind romantically will result in a horrible trainwreck, with no emotional survivors....I am looking forward to the rest of my life
Chicana26 (2:06:44 PM): haha lordy
WM GiRLiE14 (2:07:30 PM): awww
WM GiRLiE14 (2:07:37 PM): i didnt mean it in a bad way!!!
Chicana26 (2:07:59 PM): but then again... a trainwreck really cant go well haha
WM GiRLiE14 (2:08:27 PM): well if u survive its bettter than if u died right
Chicana26 (2:09:22 PM): haha yes survive with the emotional pain which will further cripple any of my other relashionships i would try to pertain in the future... damn i lose haha
Chicana26 (2:09:29 PM): haha i love it lol
Chicana26 (2:09:34 PM): makes me laugh kinda lol
WM GiRLiE14 (2:09:41 PM): awww haha
Damn I suck sometimes haha
I did buy some nice books today though=) Boys are not the only thing I have on my mind haha They sure are a perk though, I'll admit that.... I dont even know what im talking about...
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery,
I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard,
I learned the hard way to never let it get that far
Because of you I never stray to far from the sidewalk,
Because of you I learned to play on the safeside so I dont get hurt,
Because of you, I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me,
Because of you I am afraid.
I cannot cry because I know thats weakness in your eyes.
My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with.
I watched you die, I heard you cry every nite in your sleep. I was so young you should have known better then to lean on me. You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain,and now I cry in the middle of the nite for the same damn thing.
Because of you I never stray to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safeside so I dont get hurt,
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything,
Because of you I dont know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because its empty
Because of you I am afraid.